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Hush Now Don’t You Cry

Hush now don’t cry… wipe away the teardrop from your eye. You’re lying safe in bed… It was all a bad dream spinning in your head. Your mind tricked you to feel the pain of someone close to you leaving the game of life. So here it is, another chance- wide awake you face the day. Your dream is over… Or has it just begun?

I’m listening to one of my favorite songs right now – Silent Lucidity by Queensryche. I don’t know why I love it so much but anytime I hear it it makes me think of some Opeth and I like to sway back and forth to the beat. It comforts me I think and that’s something I don’t have often. Today was interesting. I went to work and was bored most of the day and then went to the gym after with an old friend. It was actually lots of fun and a good time I needed out I think. I usually go to the gym alone.. but it was nice to have someone there to talk to for once. I’m not good with meeting people online or in person for that matter.. and well I feel better talking online for some reason at first. But I haven’t seen him in ages and it was a good time tonight.

On that note, I’m back on the gym kick. I figure if I have to pay for it for a year I might as well use it and try and lose some weight finally for once since I’ve been saying that I’m going to for weeks now. It’s just a matter of eating right and eating good.. that’s always my problem. I can go to the gym every day of the week if I wanted to. But when it comes to eating better I suck at it sadly. I need someone to kick my butt into gear to eat right for once. I’m so used to eating everything I wanted to and not gaining weight at all because of the Mono I had in my body and now my metabolism is catching up to me from the last 10 years and making me not lose any weight at all. I don’t like being the way I am when I gained like 30 pounds in a year and a half two years now. It sucks and everything I used to like and wear doesn’t fit me anymore and it’s real disheartening.

I’ve had more time lately to write, obviously, since I don’t do too much anymore. I don’t have a boyfriend anymore, I have more time for me and well.. I’m not sure if I like it or not to be honest. It makes me think and that’s the last thing I like to do is to think. Then I get all these crazy ideas and stuff. I’m trying to go out there and meet new people and go to the gym more.. and take myself on “me” dates and relax a lot more. I think I’m too .. used to being around people and never really focused on myself and what I want to do in life. Now I have the chance to do that for once for awhile and I’m going to start doing that. Whether that means finding a job I like and want to stick with or moving to find said job.. you never know what might happen now. I’m not attached to anything here really and I’m not going to let anyone stop me at this point.

I want to start living and traveling and relaxing and taking care of me. This time next year I could have the job I always wanted or be living in another state or even country… I’ve always wanted to do something crazy; I just need to figure out how to incorporate the cats into my life. Maybe it’s time I rented that RV and packed up what I needed sold the rest and went on my way. I think about that a lot obviously.. as it’s been in my most recent blog posts multiple times. I think I really do need to leave the valley and start doing what I really want to do. No that doesn’t mean I’m coming home family.. as much as you want me to. I need to do me, and that’s not at home unfortunately. (Sorry mom, but you should come with me anyway and do something spontaneous.) And how ironic … Iron Maiden Run To The Hills just came on my music.. so fitting I think.

I’m pretty sure my roommates can hear me singing because I’ve been blasting some 80’s hits now and old school music and singing along and I have headphones in.. oops. I have no shame anymore I don’t care I’ll sing all the 80’s tunes that my heart desires. I don’t get to do that enough really.. and I need to get it out of my system everyonce in awhile. HEAVEN ISNT TOO FAR AWAYYYY. CLOSER TO IT EVERY DAY. NO MATTER WHAT YOUR FRIENDS MIGHT SAYYYY; WE’LL FIND OUR WAY. YEEAHHH.  There that’s my little shit for the night right there. Let’s see if you know what song that is and who it’s by. 10 cookies to anyone who can name that song and if you don’t know it without looking up the lyrics.. I don’t know you anymore. Seriously. Know your anthems damnit. /rant on 80’s tunes.

I really didn’t have a purpose for this entry today – I just wanted something to do I think before going to bed. And I’ve been sitting here listening to 80’s jams now after Iron Maiden came on and I put on the 80’s Love Station on Apple Music. Well then, this brings back so many memories and I love it. I’m going to sit here and keep jamming out to 80’s love ballads and sing them till I sleep. If you cant put up with that then well, I’m sorry. You’re gonna have to. Btw, Nobody’s Fool is on right now. Name that band.

In honor of 80’s Here’s a throwback photo from College Koral

A Favor House Atlantic

Your eyes tell the stories of a day you wish you could recall the moments that once have.
Retract the footsteps that brought us to this favor I wouldn’t ask this of you.

It’s been awhile since I’ve written, so much going on and so much I need to sort out. Time’s coming up as to when I won’t have a job and I need to really crunch on applying and trying to find one for when I come back from Vegas. I hope NJ will grant me unemployment though or I won’t make it very long at all without it and I’ll probably have to sell everything or move back to NJ and I don’t want to do that. Things are going okay here for once and I don’t want to give that up. Maybe I’ll just move halfway across the world or state and rule out going home and being homeless. I’ll go out to Cali like everyone else does. But then I have the cats to worry about too so I don’t know how that will go for them. Everything all up in the air and I’m kind of stressed about it myself. I don’t know what to do. I can’t ask for more money off Nana and Poppop, they give me too much already and I feel like a failure because I can’t even support myself. I might just have to take in a roommate or something so me and Emle can make it work somehow in the winter.

I think work is getting to me. I’ve been doing what I need to do but I think just like everyone else at the company, I’m slowing down. And I’m only a temp. Some of the people there have been there for 15-20 years like my mom, and I can only imagine how they feel. They’re a great company, it just sucks to see this location go under and make everyone move to MA if they want to still have a job. I’m tempted to apply there to see if there’s anything good there that I would be great for without having to go back to school or something like that. I applied for a job here in PA but haven’t gotten a call back or anything, but there’s only one position available not multiple like I’m used to applying for. I want to actually be selected by someone because I strike them as a great worker. And I think I’d be perfect for this place I applied for and they’re hiring right at the time I’m looking for… so it’s silly of them not to pick me especially since I’m used to working with computers. Just, give me luck please. I know I’m a great pick for alot of companies. They just have to see it for themselves.

Short post, but another later tonight. I just felt like I had to get some stuff out before I exploded. Next post will have new pics in it that I’ve been taking recently with my new phone. More on that later also.

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Hump Day Help

Greetings, folks!

So I wanted some input on these I made for my photography. I asked a couple friends about their ideas and I’m going to be altering them to encompass their opinions as well. But for now, I’m working on business cards and need to know thoughts.
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Now, some things people have said so far to me include: take out location, might be too busy with the bokeh on the back, change the color of one letter on the front to red to stand out, put the K correctly on the front so people understand.

I agree with some of them. I’m going to take out the location off the back. I think I’m also going to change the front “K” to red, but still keep it backwards. It adds a bit of flair in my opinion and I’m not normal so, I’m sticking with thay decision. I think it’s sleek and interesting, but I’m not too sure about the back.

Your opinions are greatly appreciated on this one!

Anyway, it’s hump day and only 2 more days of 8-430 working this week. And I even have some OT in my schedule for this week (only 45 minutes but still.. that’s still some.) I wish we could do unlimited OT.. I’d be working all the time since I need the money.  But then that’d be frowned upon and I wouldn’t be allowed. Hence,I need a new job. 😦 or a part time one on top of this one. Something to save for small car things and Vegas in October.

More later, I need to get some sleep. I’m exhausted and haven’t been sleeping well again for all this week. Go figure right?

You can design and create, and build the most wonderful place in the world. But it takes people to make the dream a reality. – Walt Disney

Cheers!
xoxox
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