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I Am The Wind

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“When you’re dumb enough for long enough, you’re gonna meet someone too smart to love you, and they’re gonna love you anyway, and it’s gonna go so poorly.” – Neil Hilborn, Ballad of the Bruised Lung

Been awhile, life’s been crazy. I’ve been trying to find the time to keep writing but I just haven’t had any. I mean I have, but I’ve had no ideas really to make me want to write anything substantial in my opinion. It’s been a blur to be honest, I can’t believe a year has almost gone by since myself and guy started dating again.. and it makes me feel semi good, that I can make it better than the last time we dated since we both effed up the last time and several times after that. Seems like we can’t just get it right.. Maybe this time won’t be so bad… here’s to hoping!

I’ve taken some photos recently, with guy’s other camera the Sony a6000 and I like it. But I only like it with the 90mm Macro since it’s amazing. I kind of want it. But there’s no way I can afford the lenses for it. Yes, I can borrow his, but what’s that going to do for me should something happen with myself and him. I will never give up my Canon camera for something else. I would only add to it. I plan on trying to start a collection of some sorts and when I finally get a home, I will have a camera closet for all my things.

Here are a few shots of the Sony a6000 that I took just yesterday around Nanticoke, PA. 

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When you’re tired of waiting and time is not on your side
When you’re tired of hating me, you no longer want to hide

It’s time for another session of relaxation and tea bath before my roommates get home and take their long shower. I’ve been thankful enough to get to take some nice showers lately thankfully, and it’s helping my mood a lot surprisingly. *hand clap* Off I go because then I’m going to sleep forever tonight, maybe I’ll put my hair in curlers again. We’ll see since it seems to poof then I use them, lol!

Cheers,

xoxox

July 15, 2014.

So for those of you wondering- I’ve been social media less for about 2 days now- I disabled my Facebook and my Twitter account for the time being as a result of complications. The only thing I have is Instagram, Snapchat ocassionally and Tumblr right now- and Tumblr is kind of dead anyway and my posts are queued. So I’m never on there much either.

It’s going well. I’m still attached to my phone though and I’m not sure why. I’ve tried putting it down and letting it alone. Most times there are only a few people I’d want to talk to and they don’t even talk to me- so there really is no point really.

After work today I’ll probably try and leave my phone alone again. I may sleep through the night or play some Diablo till 9 then call it quits. I don’t have anything to do tonight except give some stuff to a friend and (maybe) hang out for a little. I don’t know. Who knows.. at this point… I just don’t know anymore.

So because of this Facebook and Twitter boycott goes… I obviously can’t post to my photography Facebook either so that’s come to a halt. Not sure when I’ll pick up Facebook again. I haven’t stopped taking photos- and I’ll probably post them to here in the meantime.

This picture below is from the hockey benefit Saturday that pulled in over $100 and thankfully someone awesome got it. He wants to gather the rest of the signatures on it to it’s official and looks awesome. I’m super proud of this and how well it came out. I could have done larger pictures… but I think it looks fine the way it is.  Here’s a few more too from the dunk tank and my other photograph at the benefit.

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On another note- today is my first year anniversary with work. Not sure how I feel about that to be honest. Yeah I have a job- and it’s awesome .. I just wish there was more to do as well. We’re bringing on another person this fall I believe but I’m not sure why since there’s not much for us to do anyway already.. but more props to them. I want to manage the Pinterest and instagram for them if I can. That way I’m not on Facebook even for work. Maybe that will help me quit bitching on the internet. Who knows… it’s worth a try maybe I think.

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I demand cake. It’s an anniversary. .. where’s my cake? I worked hard for this. And I’ll still be here if I don’t find something better. I’m hoping we evolve as a team as well – and learn to work together more.

Anyway- that’s all for today. Long day yesterday and today. I just want to take zzquil and collapse at 9pm tonight and have 10 hours of sleep. I think I need it. And I need food. I haven’t eaten much in the past week. That’s not good. Someone feed me good food so I don’t die. Please? Thanks.
More later.. I’ll be posting all my photographs here.

||Koral♡Dawn||

Get Your Nerd On

Hey everyone!

I’m going to start posting updates on my cosplay outfits I’ll be working on this summer for NYCC– here’s to hoping they come out okay since I’ve never done this before and I’ve actually never been to a con. Can  you believe that? I know, so depressing for a geek like me. 😦 But it’s okay! I’ll change that this year. I plan on going to a few in the area when I can atleast for a day or two.

I’ll be attending Wizard World Philly – but I still need to find an outfit. I wanted to go the cliche Misty from Pokemon since it’s super simple and easy to throw together but then I wonder how many others I’ll run into. And plus it’s not a real cosplay outfit.. there’s my road block. So I have a few options that I have picked out- and I’ll need your help. I know I’m going as Jinx from League of Legends to the NYCC in October- here’s to hoping I get that press pass I registered for. I should know by June 6! Fingers crossed, wish me luck!

So for Wizard World- I had another thought. Maybe I can pull off a Raven from Teen Titans since I already have a hooded cloak as it is (I think) and I can get a simple wig. I also had the idea of Ramona Flowers from Scott Pilgrim. If anyone else might have any ideas as of who is simple enough without being TOO simple or tacky, please let me know- I’m always open to new ideas and things especially for this. Here are my ideas:
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I’ve also thought of this one too which… heh. I know I can pull off because I have the wig already and I can easily make fluffy wear. I juat need a larger chest area and then I’m golden. That might cost a few… thousand though sadly. So nothing too soon haha.
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So it’s getting near to Wizard World in Philly.. trying to vamp up something for it. I don’t know what day I am going yet whether it be Friday the 20th or Sunday the 22nd- I can’t go Saturday as much as I wanted to. (I’m going to be dying at a 5k that day in the Poconos with a bunch of people.) Maybe I’ll go Sunday and meet John Cena… lol. Yuck. I know he’ll be there.. I’m tempted just for the heck of it.
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I think I may try and just pull off something simple for this time and go all out for NYCC… I haven’t heard back about my press pass yet – but I’m hoping I get one. It would be awesome to be able to do that.
More later – need to get planning.

| Koral♡Dawn |

Here I Am

Here I am sitting in my car.
It’s nearly 1 in the morning.
I just came back from seeing a good good friend of mine who thankfully has not deserted me yet and the drive back was wonderful this late at night.
I’m excited to pick up and drive everywhere this summer when I get my car.
I can’t wait to get into my Stang hopefully this summer if not for my birthday.
I don’t care if it’s PA and it snows alot.
I’m stuck this close to work for awhile anyway, you only live once and when you die you have no debt to worry about anymore.
I need to do something for me.
This car will be mine.
It’s the only thing I’ve wanted since I was 13, and I plan on making this summer happen.
I don’t care that it won’t be a brand new one.
It will be a 2014 still and wonderful.
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Sitting here listening to Timber by Ke$ha and Pitbull and I’ve nothing on my mind..
I just keep repeating in my head:
“IM A PEACOCK, YOU’VE GOT TO LET ME FLY!”
For some reason that line all makes sense to me now.
I’ve been living here 3 years now.
This past year has been a challenge for me to say the least and I’ve never felt this way.
New feelings, new heartbreak, new sadness, yet some new joy at the same time.
It’s been very weird to say the least.

There are things I would have been doing this summer that I am no longer doing yet still want to do. Hard, because they involve things I don’t have anymore, ha. But I’ll manage. I definitely have to do the Renn Faire still regardless because my friend and I have to. There’s no questioning that. And I plan on breaking even more plates than last time there that’s for sure. I can’t wait till we get our outfits for it too. They’re going to be so beast, you’ve no idea.
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Still, it’s now 1 AM on the dot. Sitting in the car, music blasting. I don’t want to go inside yet. It’s so nice out and the music is great right now that I have on. “It’s like dance party USA teen bop it type of shit.” (name that movie!)

Hold me close and I’ll surrender to your heart. Before the flame goes out tonight, we’ll live until we die. Come out till we lose control to a raging fire. Time will give and time will take… all the memories made will wash away.. and even though we change I’m still here with you. If you listen close, you can hear all the ghosts that bring us down. Hold on to what makes you feel, dont let go, its what makes you real. Let the world leave us behind, let your heart be next to mine. ♡ Oh Phillip Phillips.
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For some reason I can’t fall asleep anymore. I’m just not tired at all almost and New Orleans messed me up. I think I’m still in party mode and just want to be up all hours doing whatever I want and then crashing. I really need a longer vacation. Or to start living life more and doing something. But that all requires money and well, I’m trying to save… yeah not going so well really.
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On a side note… oh Enrique Iglesias. Your music is so damn catchy and I feel like I’m in a club right now and that’s what I want to do anymore.

Anyway! I really miss sports. I’m going to try and wake up early and head to Kirby for a run/walk. I need to start doing something so I’m not so tired all the time. Or go to the gym. Or play a sport. I miss baseball and bowling. I should join a league and stick with it. I’ll start running and go from there. Since I have that 5k coming up in june… I need to prep so I don’t die too much while there. And I need to start eating right too. That’s another thing I’m doing wrong. I want to lose that chin I got for some unknown reason. Ugh. So many things!
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Omg. Pharrell’s “Happy” just came on and I just want to dance like I’m in Hairspray with Zak Efron. Ha, slide slide, swish, snap fingers, twirl. I hope no one’s around right now outside because I’m totally going to do it.
And the funny thing is anymore is: I’m not happy. I’m not sad though. Im… numb. And well, numb is better than dumb and dead, right? #yaynumbness That reminds me; I need to watch Dispicable Me 2 now that this song is playing.

I really should go inside. It’s 1:30 in the morning now. I lose track of time so easily these days and I get by on little sleep. I sleep dreamless nights usually too.. it’s been really odd. I used to have such pleasant dreams and now I don’t even have anything. I don’t know if that’s bad or not.. to be honest it’s awkward and scary at the same time. Something has to give.
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There’s a bunch of movies coming out that I want to see… Neighbors is already out.. Malificent is coming out.. Godzillllahh I need to see asap. Blended looks good too surprisingly and so does 100 Ways To Die In The West. I need people to go see them with. And I STILL have to see Spiderman! Damnit, so many movies that I need to see its unreal. 😦

Well, now that I have a tired cat laying on me for the night and I’m inside, I should probably sleep. It’s now 2 in the morning sadly. And I still can’t sleep well. Sigh. Oh well! I’ll leave you with this picture of words I enjoy a bit too much. ♡
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|| Koral♡Dawn ||