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Can’t Love, Can’t Hurt

Well I’ve been running from something.. Twenty years in my car – Down a road that’s leading me nowhere. Yeah we drive through the farmland & no one knows where we’re from. Could I kiss you and make you a queen? Or something in between? 

Do you want to see it? The place where I am free? ❤️

The place that makes me happy, the place that I can go to and feel at home no matter what is going on in my life to make me feel like this. 

The place where I feel safe and hidden from everything else in the world. 

Well, right now it’s late. Maybe tomorrow when I’m more awake and conscious will be the best time to show you where I feel free and happiest. 

I’ve been feeling really emotional as of late –  listening to Augustana and a bunch of older bands I used to listen to like Dashboard Confessional, Eve 6 and The Goo Goo Dolls. Totally worth it though. I forgot how amazing and meaningful music can be because of how it is today. Sometimes you just need “good music.”  And no, not Kanye’s “good music” because we all know that’s what he calls it. 

It’s Monday night and I’m tired as anything. I can’t believe it’s February already. Of 2016. Where is the time going? It feels just like yesterday that I was living on campus at Kutztown.. And it was 5 years ago now. I moved here in August of 2011, so this August will be my 5th year here in PA and I’ll be 26 in September. 26. Holy shit I’m getting up there. And I have still yet to be financially stable or find a place to actually call “home.” 

Time for some pictures? Sure. Have some new photography taken recently. Not all of it is with my iPhone this time believe it or not lol. Look how pissed Romeow looks though in this photo from the vet. Ironically he didn’t have a problem and loved the vet like always. The lighting was just perfect and I got the perfect shot of him. 

  
    
 
It’s late now and I’m exhausted. I think it’s bedtime for me believe it or not. You know you’re old or getting old when 9:30 pm is beginning to look like bed. I’m only 25. Damnit.

Cheers, 

xoxox

  

Here I Am

Here I am sitting in my car.
It’s nearly 1 in the morning.
I just came back from seeing a good good friend of mine who thankfully has not deserted me yet and the drive back was wonderful this late at night.
I’m excited to pick up and drive everywhere this summer when I get my car.
I can’t wait to get into my Stang hopefully this summer if not for my birthday.
I don’t care if it’s PA and it snows alot.
I’m stuck this close to work for awhile anyway, you only live once and when you die you have no debt to worry about anymore.
I need to do something for me.
This car will be mine.
It’s the only thing I’ve wanted since I was 13, and I plan on making this summer happen.
I don’t care that it won’t be a brand new one.
It will be a 2014 still and wonderful.
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Sitting here listening to Timber by Ke$ha and Pitbull and I’ve nothing on my mind..
I just keep repeating in my head:
“IM A PEACOCK, YOU’VE GOT TO LET ME FLY!”
For some reason that line all makes sense to me now.
I’ve been living here 3 years now.
This past year has been a challenge for me to say the least and I’ve never felt this way.
New feelings, new heartbreak, new sadness, yet some new joy at the same time.
It’s been very weird to say the least.

There are things I would have been doing this summer that I am no longer doing yet still want to do. Hard, because they involve things I don’t have anymore, ha. But I’ll manage. I definitely have to do the Renn Faire still regardless because my friend and I have to. There’s no questioning that. And I plan on breaking even more plates than last time there that’s for sure. I can’t wait till we get our outfits for it too. They’re going to be so beast, you’ve no idea.
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Still, it’s now 1 AM on the dot. Sitting in the car, music blasting. I don’t want to go inside yet. It’s so nice out and the music is great right now that I have on. “It’s like dance party USA teen bop it type of shit.” (name that movie!)

Hold me close and I’ll surrender to your heart. Before the flame goes out tonight, we’ll live until we die. Come out till we lose control to a raging fire. Time will give and time will take… all the memories made will wash away.. and even though we change I’m still here with you. If you listen close, you can hear all the ghosts that bring us down. Hold on to what makes you feel, dont let go, its what makes you real. Let the world leave us behind, let your heart be next to mine. ♡ Oh Phillip Phillips.
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For some reason I can’t fall asleep anymore. I’m just not tired at all almost and New Orleans messed me up. I think I’m still in party mode and just want to be up all hours doing whatever I want and then crashing. I really need a longer vacation. Or to start living life more and doing something. But that all requires money and well, I’m trying to save… yeah not going so well really.
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On a side note… oh Enrique Iglesias. Your music is so damn catchy and I feel like I’m in a club right now and that’s what I want to do anymore.

Anyway! I really miss sports. I’m going to try and wake up early and head to Kirby for a run/walk. I need to start doing something so I’m not so tired all the time. Or go to the gym. Or play a sport. I miss baseball and bowling. I should join a league and stick with it. I’ll start running and go from there. Since I have that 5k coming up in june… I need to prep so I don’t die too much while there. And I need to start eating right too. That’s another thing I’m doing wrong. I want to lose that chin I got for some unknown reason. Ugh. So many things!
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Omg. Pharrell’s “Happy” just came on and I just want to dance like I’m in Hairspray with Zak Efron. Ha, slide slide, swish, snap fingers, twirl. I hope no one’s around right now outside because I’m totally going to do it.
And the funny thing is anymore is: I’m not happy. I’m not sad though. Im… numb. And well, numb is better than dumb and dead, right? #yaynumbness That reminds me; I need to watch Dispicable Me 2 now that this song is playing.

I really should go inside. It’s 1:30 in the morning now. I lose track of time so easily these days and I get by on little sleep. I sleep dreamless nights usually too.. it’s been really odd. I used to have such pleasant dreams and now I don’t even have anything. I don’t know if that’s bad or not.. to be honest it’s awkward and scary at the same time. Something has to give.
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There’s a bunch of movies coming out that I want to see… Neighbors is already out.. Malificent is coming out.. Godzillllahh I need to see asap. Blended looks good too surprisingly and so does 100 Ways To Die In The West. I need people to go see them with. And I STILL have to see Spiderman! Damnit, so many movies that I need to see its unreal. 😦

Well, now that I have a tired cat laying on me for the night and I’m inside, I should probably sleep. It’s now 2 in the morning sadly. And I still can’t sleep well. Sigh. Oh well! I’ll leave you with this picture of words I enjoy a bit too much. ♡
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|| Koral♡Dawn ||

The Remote and Cats

Last night I took some photos of my cats because I was a little bored; and they were being cute for once.

Does anyone notice how cats love love love remotes? Haha. They cling to these things like it’s their prized possession for some reason. It’s like, they need to be connected or something. Ever since I got MooMoo she has been attached to my remotes I have lying in the bed or whenever I’m just watching tv and leave the remote lying there, she jumps for it. She actually muted the TV on me last night! Silly kitty.
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She’s such a pain, but I love my little girl so much. Her little squeak is so cute when she wants something, she sounds like a squirrel still.

This was taken a bit ago, but here’s Romeo, being all loveable of course. Haha. He’s one of the most friendly kitties ever. Unlike MooMoo, he is a people kitty. He’ll sit on your face, literally.
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See? Point proven haha.

Anyway, just wanted to get these out there. Slow day at work and was kind of thinking of an excuse to blog. So, here you go. 🙂

||Koral♡Dawn||