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The Phoenix

2017 was a big year for me. Let’s run through some highlights:

  1. I re-found my best friend and we started dating back in May of this year. It was perhaps by accident and totally not planned but it took him awhile to decide if thats what we truly were supposed to be. Turns out, it was.
  2. We got engaged in the very end of September at our favorite place and where we had our first official date nearly 3.5 years ago at the Bloomsburg Fair in PA.
  3. I got a major promotion with the company I worked for at the time in July, and became a work from home person starting August 1. I now am a #bossbitch and work for the government creating content and social media copy for the Defense Health Agency and Department of Defense.
  4. That job landed me (and the fiancé) in Washington State for December 1 working on Joint Base Lewis-McChord for DHA Connected Health. The Pacific Northwest is great, so far. Even though we have MUCH to explore and things to be seen come spring and summer. I’m very excited.
  5. We were fortunate enough to drive across the country from PA to WA in November right after Thanksgiving and made it in 4 days, with enough time to stop at House On The Rock in Wisconsin even and spend some time there to gawk and the insanity that it is. While on the way out, I got to meet some of his family in Montana, and my god, that state is the prettiest state I’ve ever been in. #BigSkyCountry is the place to drive through in fall and summer.
  6. I can now mark quite a few states off my list that I’ve visited and they aren’t all on the east coast anymore. Hooray! An updated list of states I’ve visited so far: New Jersey, Pennsylvania, New York, Ohio, Illinois, Indiana, New Hampshire, Delaware, Massachusetts, Connecticut, Florida, Wisconsin, North Dakota, Montana, Nevada, Washington, Idaho, Washington DC, Virginia, Maryland, Louisiana and Minnesota. 
  7. Mom came and visited (already!) for Christmas and had a great few days with her. It was great to see someone, even though I wasn’t away for that long from my friends and family. I can’t wait until she brings me my kitties in the spring… I think thats part of the reason I am semi depressed.

Things are going pretty good. Helping my partner get passion back in his life is the hardest part right now. We’re both a bit under the weather and depressed and thought maybe this would help with the move, but so far, it’s just remained the same and maybe even potentially gotten a bit worse. I’m not too worried though. We’re still in the beginning and we have a lot to get done still including finishing setting up the apartment and finding him a job yet. I’m also in the market for a car, so I’m hoping that falls into place soon. Sadly, I sold Hannah at the end of December, but it was time for an upgrade and possibly a more adult car… (like I said, possibly.)

Things have a way of working out. Even though I miss my friends and family, I know some of them will be out in time to see me (and us) its just a matter of when. I feel that if I keep those close to me, I’ll slowly break from the depression I might be feeling these days. I’ll get used to it out here… soon.

One of the biggest lessons I have learned is sometimes a part of you must die. It’s what separates the newer version of us from the old. If you have ever been in the limbo of death and rebirth you know how hard it can be. To let go and say goodbye to a part of you, so a new and better part can grow.

We should strive to be like the Phoenix when we need to. To die and rise from the ashes of what we once were. We must say Goodbye, so we can say Hello.

Love Always,

Koral Dawn

Demention

‘There is an area of the mind that could be called unsane, beyond sanity, and yet not insane. Think of a circle with a fine split in it. At one end there’s insanity. You go around the circle to sanity, and on the other end of the circle, close to insanity, but not insanity, is unsanity.’

Well there it is guys. That’s where I got my name from. Have any of you ever heard of the acid trip band called Hallucinogen? Well, now you have and you’re welcome.

They are rad and I remember listening to this when I was in high school just sitting there thinking, “Wow, who ever wrote this must have been on some pretty rad drugs that I’ll never take so I have to live vicariously through them for the time being.” And so I did. This is where my name came from and I don’t think there is an actual video for the song but just listen to what I have below. Just pretend you are on acid – or if you are, even better for you because this beat is very different and amazing. They only have a few songs from what I can tell but man did the lyrics make sense to me.

It’s a Friday night and I’m sitting here just browsing the internet because people think they need to tell me how to live my life recently and I’m just getting plain sick of it. I’m sorry, I need to take my lynch when? Oh okay, so I’m not even allowed to pick it any more? I have to go when other people go because you said so? Okay, yeah that’s cool. Stop the micro-managing and we’ll all be a bit happier I think. I know it doesn’t come from you but if you’re not the one with the actual problem with me then leave it alone. I will not be told to do something I’m uncomfortable with and I most certainly will not do it with you yelling at me telling me I have to. That’s not how I work. Sorry.

That there are doors that they are afraid to go in
And they don’t want us to go in there either
Because if we go in there we might learn something
That they don’t know
And that makes us a little out of their control

I’ve been reading a lot lately. A lot of books that I haven’t read before and a lot of books that I have actually read before. Divining the Future is an amazing book that I came across in the New Age section of Barnes and Nobles a few years ago and it’s amazing and talks all about spirituality. Not that I really am into that stuff, but I think a lot of the quotes and things in there might be useful for helping me de-stress from this job and other things in my life like my money situation I’m currently in. I need something to help me with that because right now, nothing else is helping and I don’t know what to do. So I’m reading this book to see how to not be so stressed with every single thing I do in life these days. So far so good, I still have a lot to go though since it’s a long book.

I’m going to lead you, kicking and screaming, giggling and laughing, into the future. I’m going to relax you, I’m going to get you! A spiritually cleansing derangment of the senses. The happy choas out of witch enlightment might come. Oh no that was real, lets get out of here.

Anyway, I think I’ve rambled on enough for the night. I hope you guys enjoy my new layout I just re-did again. I really love how WordPress is coming out with more and more free options for us basic users and more customizations. Finally. I remember when I had stated this there weren’t that many and now there are over 4 dozen free options with more that just keep on coming. So thank you, WordPress.
Cheers,
xoxox