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I Wish I May, I Wish I Might…

I haven’t written in a few weeks. I’ve been meaning to, I just find it harder and harder to function daily with the recent job loss and other things going on in my life. I can honestly say, I’m not happy with where my life is right now, and I need to do something about it. I can’t find a job for the life of me in this area, but I’m trying. I have all the qualifications for Office work and I don’t know why these people aren’t calling me back for jobs when I clearly am a good fit for most if not all of them. Even through the Unemployment website I’ve been applying and looking and doing everything I can recently. It’s just not fair sometimes. I wish things were easier, but then it wouldn’t be called life I guess. There are alot of things I have been wishing for recently, but none of it seems to be going my way at all and it’s starting to become frustrating beyond belief.

I wish so called “friends” were actually friends to me. I’m not a second choice and I’m not an after thought. I am the first choice or you don’t give an ultimatum. If you’re my friend, you wouldn’t say “Yeah, sure, if I’m not going over so and so’s house or doing something else.” If I’m asking you, it means yes or no, not to decide after your better something can’t hang out or you can’t do something else.

I wish people realized that I’m a good person. I’m not stupid, retarded, crazy or any other things that people make me out to be. So I like texting, big whoop. Get over yourself and grow up and answer when I talk to you or something. Get over it. Can’t talk to you or see you in any other way so I’m sorry that the only communication I have with some people is through the phone. And people nowadays don’t even want to talk on the phone or god forbid video chat. What is wrong with people these days? Stop throwing excuses at me and be a damn friend to me.

I wish there were more jobs available and that people would see that I am a good fit for a lot of the ones that are posted that I reply to. I shouldn’t have to go chasing for anything at all. That’s not how this works. I apply, I follow up, I expect an answer whether it’s a yes or no. Ignorance is not my friend, and especially in the work place of any kind. I don’t care if it’s a grocery store or an office job or I’m your manager. You answer me when I talk to you and in a polite fashion as well.

I wish I got treated with more respect than what I’m given. To be perfectly honest, alot of people don’t realize that when life knocks you down, it’s very hard to get back up without the help of friends or family. To put someone even farther in the ground when they’re already down is just not going to help them get back up. Reach a hand out and help who’s even down and maybe one day something nice will happen for you. I’m always the one helping people it seems and I hardly ever get anything in return from those I help or those that mean most to me. It seems I have bad choice in people, because when I would gladly take a bullet for someone, they wouldn’t do so for me, unless it’s my mom. And that I know. But yet, I continue to help people. It’s my downfall. And I never get anything back for it even in the kindness of a thank you or something else of the like.

I wish I could find a job in design or photography or something that I love doing. I haven’t been able to locate anything here and it’s not a big city. I don’t have the money to move to a big city and live there just to find a job that’s just going to support rent and nothing else. It’s almost pointless for me to go back to school now really to get anything new completed unless it’s an online course or certification of some sorts. But that is one option for me really.

Am I loud and clear, or am I breaking up?
Am I still your charm, or am I just bad luck?
Are we getting closer, or are we just getting more lost?
I’ll show you mine if you show me yours first
Let’s compare scars, I’ll tell you whose is worse
Let’s unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words
We live on front porches and swing life away,
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I’ll slave till the end,
I won’t cross these streets until you hold my hand
I’ve been here so long, I think that it’s time to move
The winter’s so cold, summer’s over too soon
Let’s pack our bags and settle down where palm trees grow
I’ve got some friends, some that I hardly know
But we’ve had some times, I wouldn’t trade for the world
We chase these days down with talks of the places that we will go

Been at this now for awhile. Nothing’s going to get accomplished by writing and blabbering on here unless someone decides to be a friend and want to talk to me about what’s bothering me really. I maybe have a select few people I actually tell everything to. And even those people shouldn’t be told things because they just use them against me all the time anyway.



|| Koral Dawn ||

…And Here, We, GO.

Alright so now, It’s February. Already a month and some odd days gone by in the new year, and it seems like it was just Christmas. Pretty soon it will be again. I don’t like that. Life is just flashing before my eyes and I don’t like it one bit. I want to be able to slow life down and grab it by the horns and say WOAH GIRL, HOLD UP. But it’s not that simple. Not at all.

I’ve decided to change my blog around a bit, changed the look of it and decided to go for a more.. professional look rather than a teenager look if you wanted to call it that. Of course I’ll still write about the same stuff here and there, post pictures, that doesn’t matter. I just think that having a nice looking blog is always for the better.

So I think I need to sell a few things. I’m way behind on money and I shouldn’t have bought some things I did, but I needed them, like cat litter, cat food, food for me, bookcases etc. Just some things I needed for around the house that well, I didn’t have. And now I’m regretting it. If you can do anything to help me… my PayPal information is MarigoldxKaye@aol.com You can donate money there… so I don’t fall behind on anything. I know not ALL of you people out there are assholes… There are still SOME good people out there that can help when they can. It seems I always help people out.. but they can never help me back in return. I’m always putting help out there for others.. and then get hit in my face. All the time. ALL the time. Oh well. I guess I’m just too nice to everyone. And you people wonder why I close myself off occasionally and don’t talk to anyone.. It’s not my fault. I’m tired of being nice. I always get screwed over in the end.

On a side note, I think I’m going to change my blog once more though. Unless you have an opinion on this layout? I think it’s a bit TOO plain or a bit too blah for me, even if it is professional. Please leave feedback here in the comments so I know what to do. Please, and thank you in advance.

Also… on a happier note, we’re getting snow soon.. I hope we get alot, I don’t feel like doing anything this weekend really. I want to sit inside and watch movies and drink hot chocolate and clean out all the clothes I have. I have too many clothes.. I need to sell some. Would anyone be interested in buying some? Haha. Sorry, I tend to ramble on.

May 18, 2012 Photo of The Day

“You have a nice ass.”
It’s Friday and I had to post this. This has to be the best piece of money I’ve ever gotten. I think I’m going to start writing this on all the money I have in my wallet and see where they end up in the USA. I think it’s a good idea. What about you?

Wrap Your Troubles In Dreams


First off, THANK GOD IT’S FRIDAY. I could not stress that enough at this moment. This week has been the most stressful week I have had in a LONG time because people don’t know what the hell they’re doing with this bible we’re making for work. They think they can just do it any old way, but honestly, how can you do it one way, they way you know, and expect other people to be able to do it this way if you don’t even list the steps in the correct order… I mean really. That’s why we’re creating this; for people to be able to do all the same things and get the same results… and we can’t do that until everyone creating the book is on the right page. Sigh.

That and the fact that no one listens to me. I’m the one that has to fix your shit when you “hand it in” to me.. and it’s all completely wrong. ASDFGHJKL: I don’t want to have to be doing your work on top of mine. Don’t get me wrong, I love my job; but people please, listen to the directions as to what you’re supposed to be doing.

Moving on. Today I found out that IKEA is going to building a neighborhood in London.. can I move there please?? They said it’s to fix the number of people they have there… but if you build it, it will just attract more Americans there I’m sure of it.. mainly people like me who love their stuff.

This weekend is supposed to be super super nice, except for Sunday because it says Thunderstorms and shit :/ Not looking forward to that since Hockey is on Sunday but you never know. This time I’ll bring an umbrella. Which reminds me, I have to clean out my car today and bring in that blanket from the back and put a towel in Jim’s hockey bag for him. Because we both always forget. And have to get some Powerade and shit. This sucks. I’m really running out of money kind of. I need to stop buying unnecessary crap.. And gas is just WAY too expensive these days. Thank God I got paid today instead of Monday.. I’ll be needing gas again by Monday and little things from the store like milk. Eep.

Oh well, I think I’ve rambled enough today.