I was nominated many eons ago by Debs The Ninja on her blog. I’m super grateful, and never realized what it was until I read more up on it not too long ago (meaning like 3 months ago now, but still this was from back years ago… lol.) Since this is so old, I’m going to still answer the questions I was given by Debs, but I’m hoping this will translate into the 2018 version. The rules are simple and not hard to follow!
These are the rules:
Thank the nominator and post a link to his/her blog
Display the award on your blog
Answer the questions provided by the nominator
Include some random facts about yourself
Nominate 5-11 blogs which have less than 1000 followers
Prepare more questions
The questions given to me go as follows:
If you could visit any five countries in the world with no time or money constraints, where would you go and why?
Wow, any 5? I’m not honestly sure. I know one would have to be Hungary because I’m Hungarian and Budapest is gorgeous in photos I see on the web. I know someone who lives there, and she’s a fellow Etsy seller (you can check out her stuff here!) My next would have to be Iceland. I’ve always wanted to head there and see the hot springs and mountains that I see so many photos of online and on Instagram. I was thinking possibly a honeymoon destination…. but I’d need to get the fiance on board first to go there, haha. Third would have to be Finland. My mom went some many years ago, and said it was gorgeous. Not to mention that the fact so much amazing music comes out of there… mainly Poets of the Fall which happens to be my favorite band. I have never seen them because they don’t have a presence over here in the states, sadly. But one day I hope to see them live. Also, northern lights, DUH! My last two would have to be Japan and Scotland. No real reason except that photos that I’ve seen are amazing. As someone who has an interest in photography and different food sometimes, I’d say it would be well worth it for me to explore more options. A lot of other countries are over played.. and make them more crowded. I’d like to go off the beaten path a bit and stay in locations that aren’t popular at these.
What inspires or motivates you?
Before my fiance… not much motivated me. I was in a crappy hole from break up after break up and didn’t want to do anything or be with anyone. Now, I like to think we inspire each other with ideas and we mesh well, making us both better people. I love nature and the organic shapes of flowers, leaves, and trees. In order to be surrounded by inspiration and find new inspiration, I think it’s important to get out of your office every day to take a short walk or find a new hiking path. I want to start to do this more, since the weather is starting to get amazing here in WA.
How would you describe yourself in ten words?
- Outgoing 2. Loving 3. Crazy 4. Wine-Drinker 5. Passionate 6. Short-Tempered 7. Motivational 8. Understanding 9. SocialButterfly 10. Weird
What is the craziest or awesomest thing you’ve ever done?
Packed up and moved to the West Coast. No, seriously. I was living in PA and previously NJ, and was like you know what, I need a change. So I found a job out here and well, here I am! I decided that I wasn’t getting any younger and if I wanted to do something I had to do it. And thankfully my fiance came with me (LOL) or he’d be pretty sad back there without me.
What is your spirit animal and why?
The Wolf: A power animal symbolic of freedom
The power of the wolf brings forth instinct, intelligence, appetite for freedom, and awareness of the importance of social connections. This animal can also symbolize fear of being threatened and lack of trust. When the wolf shows up in your life, pay attention to what your intuition is telling you. Wolf power or spirit animals point to an appetite for freedom and living life powerfully, guided by instincts. When a wolf manifests its presence as a guide in your life, it could be a call to live your life more freely, to bring the intensity of passion in your everyday endeavors. Wolves are wild animals that are not easily domesticated and when they appear as spirit guides, they could be an invitation to look at what supports your authentic self and the true expression of yourself. The wolf totem is a reminder to keep your spirit alive and trust your instincts to find the way that will best suit you. (Excerpt taken from here.)
Do you remember your dreams? If so, what was your weirdest dream?
Sometimes I do. That’s something I’ve always wanted to keep track of at least for a little while. I haven’t been dreaming lately though, since moving to Washington. Which I find a little odd. Back in PA I was always dreaming and I’ve had a few strange ones, but none that I can remember vividly to be honest. I’d like to keep a dream journal by my bed to start tracking those, if I ever have another dream.
What is your favorite band/song/genre of music?
I like to say I don’t have a favorite band or genre at all. I listen to anything from Pop to Rock to Death Metal to Opera so I don’t think I can give myself a category specifically. I feel like there are a lot of people like this in today’s day and age, along with this being perfectly normal.
How would you describe a perfect day?
If you want to check out my previous blog I wrote about this you can – it’s too long to write in here!
Do you prefer cold weather or hot weather?
Cold! Well, sometimes. You can always put on more layers to get warm, but you can’t take off anymore layers without going past naked. At least, that’s how I view it… I’m not sure how the rest of you do. I’d much rather pile on the blankets to be comfortable than dripping sweat when you need electricity for a fan or something to help that out.
What are you most afraid of?
Existential Anxiety: According to existential theorists, a universal fear of the limits and responsibilities of one’s existence.
What do you love more than anything else and why?
- Learning. Learning is not necessarily about knowledge per se but it is also about developing the ability to think critically, about using one’s imagination and many more things. Ghandi once declared that “the future depends on what we do in the present.” If we are to have a future, we need to evolve.
- Nature. “We need the tonic of wildness…At the same time that we are earnest to explore and learn all things, we require that all things be mysterious and unexplorable, that land and sea be indefinitely wild, unsurveyed and unfathomed by us because unfathomable. We can never have enough of nature.” ― Henry David Thoreau
Need I say more?
- Delux Does Life
- Discovering Life with Appie
- Sweet Lemons
- Anna Merissa
- Bay Area Beauty Blogger
- 4 Little Fergusons
- Butterfly Samurai
- A Guy’s Guide to Wedding Planning
Here are my new questions to answer:
- What is your favorite quote?
- If you could go anywhere in the world for 3 months, where would you go and why?
- What are some things you’re passionate about and why?
- That’s the weirdest thing you’ve done so far?
- Do you consider yourself an introvert or an extrovert?
- What makes you feel accomplished?
- If you are in a bad mood, do you prefer to be left alone or have someone to cheer you up?
- Do you believe in second chances?
- What’s on your bucket list this year?
- What’s your biggest regret in life?
- I’ve been to 26 states so far and hoping to do all 50 before 35.
- I have 21 tattoos.
- I’ve had my blog for 7+ years.
- If I go to a brewery, and they don’t have a pretzel and beer cheese sauce, they are immediately judged. It’s my go to.
- I drink wine like water sometimes.
- I’ve lived on both coasts now, and the weather on the West Coast is so far the winner even though I’ve only been here for 5 months.
- I hate flying.
- I work for the government.
- I’m marrying my best friend – someone who’s tried to get me for 4 years.
- I procrastinate everything in life … Except work most times.
“Algebra applies to the clouds, the radiance of the star benefits the rose–no thinker would dare to say that the perfume of the hawthorn is useless to the constellations. Who could ever calculate the path of a molecule? How do we know that the creations of worlds are not determined by falling grains of sand? Who can understand the reciprocal ebb and flow of the infinitely great and the infinitely small, the echoing of causes in the abyss of being and the avalanches of creation? A mite has value; the small is great, the great is small. All is balanced in necessity; frightening vision for the mind. There are marvelous relations between beings and things, in this inexhaustible whole, from sun to grub, there is no scorn, each needs the other. Light does not carry terrestrial perfumes into the azure depths without knowing what it does with them; night distributes the stellar essence to the sleeping plants. Every bird that flies has the thread of the infinite in its claw. Germination includes the hatching of a meteor and the tap of a swallow’s beak breaking the egg, and it guides the birth of the earthworm, and the advent of Socrates. Where the telescope ends, the microscope begins. Which of the two has a greater view? Choose. A bit of mold is a pleiad of flowers; a nebula is an anthill of stars. The same promiscuity, and still more wonderful, between the things of the intellect and material things. Elements and principles are mingled, combined, espoused, multiplied one by another, to the point that the material world, and the moral world are brought into the same light. Phenomena are perpetually folded back on themselves. In the vast cosmic changes, universal life comes and goes in unknown quantities, rolling everything up in the invisible mystery of the emanations, using everything, losing no dream from any single sleep, sowing a microscopic animal here, crumbling a star there, oscillating and gyrating, making a force of light, and an element of thought, disseminated and indivisible dissolving all, that geometric point, the self; reducing everything to the soul-atom; making everything blossom into God; entangling from the highest to the lowest, all activities in the obscurity of a dizzying mechanism, linking the flight of an insect to the movement of the earth, subordinating–who knows, if only by the identity of the law–the evolutions of the comet in the firmament to the circling of the protozoa in the drop of water. A machine made of mind. Enormous gearing, whose first motor is the gnat, and whose last is the zodiac.”
― Victor Hugo,
I recently found this quote from Les Misérables and I forgot how incredibly amazing of a writer Victor Hugo really was. Knowing the story in and out and seeing it on Broadway more than enough times to count on two hands .. I love this. I’m not sure where my book went but I really want to get my hands on it again. I’m hoping I still have it .. somewhere really. If not I’ll find another and buy it online.
Anyway, today (Saturday) was fun. We went down to Centralia, WA. It’s nothing like Centralia, PA but it was a cute little town with a lot of antique shops and (best of all) frozen yogurt! A few bars and taverns and food places places in between and a breakfast place even right attached to the one antique mall. (Which actually turned out to be a hotel as well so that’s pretty cool also.)
I hate being lazy though. I waste my weekends and never get anything done and want to be more productive if I can. I have no ambition so I feel what he’s going through with not having a job. But still. We have things to get done and things we want to do and keep talking about doing but we just don’t do them. Then I’m mad/upset they’re not done. I really need some motivation in order to be domestic. And it sucksssss.
Any advice? Haha
Summer is here already, it’s hot and it’s melting everything, even me. I was never really a fan of summer. I always lived for fall and spring when the temperature was just right during the day and then it was the perfect hoodie weather for the nighttime in order to snuggle up to that person you love most. Summer… it just isn’t my thing. When I was younger we would all sit around the fire at my mom’s house and relax and tell jokes and think ahead to the future and what it will be like. Now, it’s here. 10 years ago I was in high school sitting there thinking, “Man, where am I going to be in 10 years?” I can’t believe it’s been that long in the first place. Never in a million years did I think I’d end up here and where I am today. I miss the late nights worrying that a cop was going to drive by and see a bunch of high school kids out drinking around a fire when in fact we weren’t at all.
I miss the couple years that followed that where we were all about self-discovery and finding out what we were all meant for in the fall when we went to college. I miss that feeling of possibly losing my friends due to college. It’s a funny thing to miss, I know, but I feel like I don’t have that now. I don’t have that fear that I’ll lose anyone because I don’t have many people to lose. They’ve all left, and I know who my actual friends are regardless of how much we talk and do anything together. They could be miles away, starting a life, and they’ll still be there if I need to talk to someone. It’s those that stick around that matter really.
But, nonetheless, I do miss that feeling of wonder and where I’m going to wind up. In a sense, I’m starting to feel it now, again. I miss the distance of friends and being able to walk to them in my small 2 square mile town of South River. I miss texting them or calling them and saying hey, want to meet up at the park and walk around and do nothing? Want to go to the Skate Park and hangout and watch the cute guys for a while and then get ice cream? Life was simple back then. No husbands, boyfriends really, or children to worry about to get in the way. Now, it’s more along the lines of “Oh I need to find a baby sitter.” Or “I’m busy with work most of the weekend and looking for a house with my boyfriend.” Or something of the like. Now, it’s all about life, and how we should have kept in touch to see what kind of other friendship it would bring us. Granted I didn’t have many friends and I don’t have many left from that small town where everyone knew my name, but it was, at that time, the best time of my life. When I up and left to PA, I lost contact with those “friends” because I was out of sight and out of mind to them and nothing mattered it seemed. Yeah, I’ve reached out to them occasionally from time to time, but it was always a one sided conversation of “Hey how are you? What’s up with life?” and that’s really it. I guess when you drift from a place and you don’t try to reconnect with it, then you’re left out in the dust.
There’s this song that comes to mind, one I listen to regularly actually. I’m not going to mention its name right now, but in time, you’ll see what it means to me. You’ll think I’m strange and wonder how it relates to my life back home… But I promise you it does. Sometimes, I wish I could go back and visit old me. I would tell myself to make sure they don’t abandon you like they already have (my friends I mean) but then the other half of me is telling me “you found your true friends and they’re still living their same life that they were back in the day when you were still around. You’ve moved on and have a better life while they’re still living at home and away from all of that. You’re the better person and you always will be for doing what you want. They’re your age and still doing the same things as 10 years ago.” Under no circumstances do I feel sorry for the life I led and lead currently even though there were hard times and money issues.. I would have avoided the issue should I have stayed at home like the others… but then I would have ended up here with more life that them and I wouldn’t have met my boyfriend or past boyfriends either. I’m satisfied with what happened to me and the timing it did. Maybe I can reconnect with them at some point when they actually start to lead their own lives… but until then and until they understand how life truly is without parents or something to lean on… maybe now isn’t the best time.
I don’t know why this makes me think of summer… or even spring and fall. But I know it’s something I miss and something I’ll always miss; even those cold winters trying to walk to and from school because I wanted to get some exercise in at the time. It was always snowing and a mess out there… I figured I could walk a mile and a half in it. And most days I prospered in that feat. It’s those silly things I miss. And it all makes me think of the seasons changing and where I am today. I wouldn’t be me short of all of this and I wouldn’t be here at all if things were different.
My beloved do you know; how many years I’ve stared at clouds thinking that I saw you there? These are feelings that do not pass so easily- How can I forget what we’ve claimed as ours? I’m still proud of what we were; no pain remains no feelings – eternity awaits. Grant me wings that I may fly.
Back at Barnes and Nobles again on a Friday night because I have no life and it gets me out of the house for the moment. I’m still listening to the same album from yesterday unfortunately. It soothes me and makes me feel happy to some extent; even though half of it makes me want to cry half the time because of the lyrics.. isn’t it obvious? They’re meaningful and I can relate to them a lot. (If you’re confused as to which album it is, it’s VNV Nation with the Babelsberg Film Orchestra – Resonance. I love orchestral pieces, and would like to go see another soon. I need to find me someone who wants to go to Broadway with me and see some plays. I tree up roaming the city and I miss it. I wish I could live there and work there. I’d make a perfect New Yorker in my opinion. I love people and I love the city. Too bad it’s so damn expensive. Maybe now that I no longer have to rely on someone and can do what my brain wants for once, I can try to look for a job in the city and move there and finally do what I want to do. That’s just a thought. Any city really… but New York is ideal for me since I can always take a train home and leave my car with mom.. that’s what I wanted to do from the start but it never got to that point and then things shifted and I moved to PA. Not saying I regret that at all.. I’ve met all the people I know today by moving here and giving up all those fake friends in NJ.. I’m glad I was able to move to a place outside my comfort zone – I wouldn’t change it for the world.
I’m kind of shoved in a corner right now at Barnes and Nobles – I’ve made my nest and there are people all around me. I’m glad I’ve got my headphones on though – it drowns out het they’re saying because they’re disturbing my mental ability to put words together here for this post. There are definitely more people here than last night – and now there’s a baby crying next to me… Help. No bueno, no babies. Ugh. No wonder I never want any kids. I can’t even stand other peoples… unless I can give them back at the end of the day. I love them… when they’re not mine to take home. And for some reason they love me. I worked at a day camp for years, and I loved all the kids there but I would never never in a million years take any of them home with me or want to. They were the brattiest most annoying children ever with hardly any supervision. Every now and then you’d get a good kid who was quiet and not annoying at all and then hope seemed to be restored. But then – demon child from hell. Not something I wanted to deal with when taking them home. I’ve known for awhile now I never want children. And I was lucky enough to find someone who didn’t want them either.. now that they’re gone, I feel its going to be hard to find someone else that never wants children either. And truthfully does not want any, not just because they love me; but because that’s what they want as well.
I’ve moved now to my bed and have stopped writing for the night. It’s now Sunday night and 8pm. I’m sitting in bed doing nothing but this and Friends on TV. Romeo is sitting here staring at me, Moomoo is sleeping on my purse that’s on my bed. Tonight’s hard for me. He admitted he missed me and loved me, which is great.. but still refuses to act like a human adult and talk about problems and work on what we have. I want to know if I’m wasting my time. I don’t like wasting my time on things that will go nowhere. I have a life to live and I can’t keep putting my life on hold for everyone and everything. If nothing is better by April, I am then looking to move to another state again and start over and cut ties to everyone and everything.. I’ve thought about this recently more than I’d like to, but I think sometimes you just need to pick up and leave and not look back. Those that miss you will let you know and be there for you and those that don’t will show it by not making themselves present at all in your life. I already found out who my friends were once, I guess I’ll find that out again if I leave this area. I’ve not much left to give and I’m tired of wasting my time. Once my lease is up, over the summer maybe, and I can save up some money maybe.. I can leave and move on finally.
I shouldn’t be feeling like shit all the time; and I deserve to live. After all, I’m only 26 and I want to travel. Granted I don’t have much money but I want to be able to go where I want. I’ve thought about buying or renting an RV, packing up life and getting rid of everything I own and travel cross country with the Meows and see what happens. I wish I could just get up and leave and go somewhere far away like my friend Jessica did. She moved from Seattle to Australia and has been traveling ever since and I envy her so much. She is truly living life the way I want to I just don’t have the financial means and I will never give up my Meows for anything. They are what’s been holding me back from a lot- they are the glue that makes me sane and hold my head together. I’d be even more miserable without them. More and more I think about leaving and traveling.. it becomes the first thing in my mind when I wake up every day. Thinking – I just want to leave everything and not have to deal with anything ever again. I would worry about me myself and I .. and the meows because meow. Maybe one day – I just hope I’m not too old to handle myself. I want to do it young; and I wouldn’t mind having someone come with me.
Your hearts were never made of stone. Rise up you earth bound demons; rise up before me now and fight. Your time has finally come. Take me back before the years and memories … before the hourglass has drained; before the colors start to fade.
I haven't written in a while. I've been too preoccupied with life at the moment.. Not sure if that's good or bad really at this point in my life. Things have gone great, things have gone sour, things have gone amazing. It all depends on the day you catch me on and what I'm doing unfortunately. Sometimes I feel like I just can't win either way, but that doesn't matter to anyone.
A little update – I had my first art show at The Steamtown Mall last night for the Steamtown Market. I guess it was a success. I had many friends there to support me and so many stayed with me, but I didn't sell much or as much as I wanted to at least. Maybe one day I'll get there. I got a lot of "Wow, you're really talented." And "Wow those look great, you have a good eye." But I only sold maybe 3-4 things. Didn't make a profit really after all I spent to go into this. But there's hope and more chances in the future. Here's a couple photos from the night – my stand looked alright. It could have been better and bigger like everyone else's there but it just wasn't since this was my first show.
So I took some new pictures recently at Georgetown Deli and Beer Store in Wilkes Barre, PA and wanted to share them with you.
Who doesn’t like a good brew some days? Everyone needs something after a long week of work and losing an hour of sleep today. I was able to go to King of Prussia this weekend and IKEA to get some new things for the apartment next door that I needed and we stopped at the Rock Bottom Brewery as well and that place was probably the best place I have been for food in a very long time – lunch was also only $30 for two people and food and drinks. That’s perfect. It sucks we’re not closer to the place, but for now we’ll make it a point to go down there whenever we go to IKEA or KOP Mall.
Overall, this weekend was awesome and I was able to get a few things I wanted at IKEA. Not all of it unfortunately, but I’ll be going back in like a month to get the wardrobe I need for my room so I’m excited for that. It wouldn’t fit in my car. I need a bigger car. I’m tempted to get a larger car next year if I’m able to save up a little bit and can trade mine in also. Im thinking small SUV or jeep or something like that. Nothing “mom” though. I hate that. I don’t plan on kids so I don’t want a “mom car” at all. Just something larger and classier and so I can fit more stuff in.
Anyway, off to sleep early tonight. I lost an hour of sleep and didn’t get to sleep until 4am this morning and I regret it majorly. I’m so tired.
‘There is an area of the mind that could be called unsane, beyond sanity, and yet not insane. Think of a circle with a fine split in it. At one end there’s insanity. You go around the circle to sanity, and on the other end of the circle, close to insanity, but not insanity, is unsanity.’
Well there it is guys. That’s where I got my name from. Have any of you ever heard of the acid trip band called Hallucinogen? Well, now you have and you’re welcome.
They are rad and I remember listening to this when I was in high school just sitting there thinking, “Wow, who ever wrote this must have been on some pretty rad drugs that I’ll never take so I have to live vicariously through them for the time being.” And so I did. This is where my name came from and I don’t think there is an actual video for the song but just listen to what I have below. Just pretend you are on acid – or if you are, even better for you because this beat is very different and amazing. They only have a few songs from what I can tell but man did the lyrics make sense to me.
It’s a Friday night and I’m sitting here just browsing the internet because people think they need to tell me how to live my life recently and I’m just getting plain sick of it. I’m sorry, I need to take my lynch when? Oh okay, so I’m not even allowed to pick it any more? I have to go when other people go because you said so? Okay, yeah that’s cool. Stop the micro-managing and we’ll all be a bit happier I think. I know it doesn’t come from you but if you’re not the one with the actual problem with me then leave it alone. I will not be told to do something I’m uncomfortable with and I most certainly will not do it with you yelling at me telling me I have to. That’s not how I work. Sorry.
That there are doors that they are afraid to go in
And they don’t want us to go in there either
Because if we go in there we might learn something
That they don’t know
And that makes us a little out of their control
I’ve been reading a lot lately. A lot of books that I haven’t read before and a lot of books that I have actually read before. Divining the Future is an amazing book that I came across in the New Age section of Barnes and Nobles a few years ago and it’s amazing and talks all about spirituality. Not that I really am into that stuff, but I think a lot of the quotes and things in there might be useful for helping me de-stress from this job and other things in my life like my money situation I’m currently in. I need something to help me with that because right now, nothing else is helping and I don’t know what to do. So I’m reading this book to see how to not be so stressed with every single thing I do in life these days. So far so good, I still have a lot to go though since it’s a long book.
I’m going to lead you, kicking and screaming, giggling and laughing, into the future. I’m going to relax you, I’m going to get you! A spiritually cleansing derangment of the senses. The happy choas out of witch enlightment might come. Oh no that was real, lets get out of here.
Happy (Belated) New Year!
I know it’s a late post, and I meant to post this sooner, but my life is crazy right now. Between being swamped at work recently with backlogged stuff the other person left me to do and trying to learn everything about the Worker’s Comp Law business and dealing with Attorneys – I feel like I’m drowning at work sometimes. Don’t get me wrong, I enjoy it, and it pays well, but the drive and having to pay for parking (which I think is stupid) and once I need to pay for Health Insurance myself, I don’t think I’m going to make it money wise anymore. I’m trying to figure out ways to make some money on the side and get a little extra cash flow in here, but the only way that I know how to do that is to sell photos that I’ve created, or make more art, or something else like that. Also, Photoshoots are a good thing for me also, but then the factor comes in as to when I have the time to do that. I’m trying to figure out when I can do that.
I’m running a special right now for the winter, so if you’re in the area of Northeast PA, let me know. I can also travel to NJ and do other areas like that since my family is there. $60 will get you 5 edited digital images and an hour of shooting on location within 10 miles of Wilkes Barre, PA. Or for an extra 20$ in another place (NJ mostly.)
I’ve been listening to alot of Childish Gambino, Kid Cudi and The Weekend lately, what’s up with that? But I mean come on, who doesn’t love Donald Glover though? If you don’t love him then you’re silly. My music tastes go all over the place recently and I kind of enjoy it. Right now I’m listening to Up Up and Away by Kid Cudi and it just makes me want to dance and sing- which is what I need.
I’ll be up up and away, up up and away cause in the end they’ll judge me anyway so whatever.
I’ve also still been playing a lot of Diablo 3 again – I almost forgot how much I loved that game until I started again recently. And I’ll be starting Season 5 this weekend if anyone wants to play with me! KayeRavyn#1220 on Battle.net to add me and run some rifts or something. There’s also WoW too that I’ve been playing, but not as much and then I started on Guild Wars 2 because well, it’s free, haha. I like free things, like Diablo and GW2. WoW I understand is big and all but I don’t think there’s any reason to charge monthly just to play the game when you can one shot done pay for a game on Steam or even a console for a certain amount.
Moving on now –
I’ve made some new sections in my Etsy shop to try and sell different things and I want to make some other art like cards and geeky things like that. Here are some sample pictures – they are all Macro shots and are shot with my iPhone and the lens attachments I got for Christmas. Which, by the way, was an amazing gift in itself, lol. They are awesome and I can’t stop using them at all. Here’ have a look and see if there’s anything you like. You can purchase these on my Etsy HERE. Hopefully I start to make some sales from this to help with my money problems I’ve been having recently also. So please help out! 🙂
Anyway, it’s noon on a Saturday and I’m waiting for laundry to be done so I can go out and get some shopping done and what not for house things. I need to get food for lunches (which usually consist of lunchables because I’m poor and they fill me up, lol.) But nonetheless, I still need to eat so I have to go out and get some stuff. Also cat food for the little monsters because they’re fat and need food too.
More later everyone! Enjoy the photos and remember every little bit helps me out if you can, I definitely need more excuses to help me pick up my camera again – it’s been awhile.
I haven’t written a lot on here lately, and for that I’m sorry. There are a lot of updates I’d like to post so bear with me for a moment.
First off, I got a new job working in a Law Office up in Scranton, which I have to say is interesting and also a nice change from what I’ve been known to do. I think it’s definitely a step in the right direction, but I hope it’s going to last as long as I need it to. So far, so good. And it’s all thanks to someone awesome for getting me the job.
Secondly, I’ve been taking a few pictures here and there trying to get used to the iPhone camera and how different it is then an Android phone that I’ve always had. I didn’t like it at first, and I’m not ashamed to say that actually. I’ll make another photo post separate form this to show off some of what I’ve done and in case you are interested.
Next, I had to get a new Mac, since mine decided to take a shit a couple months ago and I lost a good deal of stuff that was on there from college and recent photo things I’ve worked on. Makes me so mad – I thought those things would last forever to be honest, I guess 8 years is long enough for a laptop to last.
I don’t really have too much else to say to be honest – so I’m going to leave you with something I found online when I was browsing the interwebs.
At heart, though, I am still the sweet girl looking for a man who will keep me safe. I don’t need you to take care of me, provide for me, fight my battles for me — any of that. But I do want you to want to do those things, while respecting me enough to know I can do them for myself. Honestly, I would prefer we each do them for each other.
I know who I am now, and I don’t need anyone to validate that for me. But I am also scared that who I am and the challenges I do face will send you running for the hills. My life is not easy and my situation gets complicated. It can be A LOT. Of everything.
As cliched as it sounds though, I am not my situation. Everyone has their own. Please don’t judge mine. Please learn about it. Ask me questions and let me answer before you come to conclusions. Let me be sweet to you and have fun with you. Let me cry freely and break down in your arms when I need to, trusting me enough to know that I am a bad-ass bitch and I’ve got this. I have plenty of crumpled on the floor moments, but I will get up and re-adjust my armor with or without you.
I would just much prefer you let me know I am safe enough to take it all off when you’re around.