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Who Cares Where It Comes From

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I haven’t written a lot on here lately, and for that I’m sorry. There are a lot of updates I’d like to post so bear with me for a moment.

First off, I got a new job working in a Law Office up in Scranton, which I have to say is interesting and also a nice change from what I’ve been known to do. I think it’s definitely a step in the right direction, but I hope it’s going to last as long as I need it to. So far, so good. And it’s all thanks to someone awesome for getting me the job.

Secondly, I’ve been taking a few pictures here and there trying to get used to the iPhone camera and how different it is then an Android phone that I’ve always had. I didn’t like it at first, and I’m not ashamed to say that actually. I’ll make another photo post separate form this to show off some of what I’ve done and in case you are interested.

Next, I had to get a new Mac, since mine decided to take a shit a couple months ago and I lost a good deal of stuff that was on there from college and recent photo things I’ve worked on. Makes me so mad – I thought those things would last forever to be honest, I guess 8 years is long enough for a laptop to last.

I don’t really have too much else to say to be honest – so I’m going to leave you with something I found online when I was browsing the interwebs.

 

At heart, though, I am still the sweet girl looking for a man who will keep me safe. I don’t need you to take care of me, provide for me, fight my battles for me — any of that. But I do want you to want to do those things, while respecting me enough to know I can do them for myself. Honestly, I would prefer we each do them for each other.

I know who I am now, and I don’t need anyone to validate that for me. But I am also scared that who I am and the challenges I do face will send you running for the hills. My life is not easy and my situation gets complicated. It can be A LOT. Of everything.

As cliched as it sounds though, I am not my situation. Everyone has their own. Please don’t judge mine. Please learn about it. Ask me questions and let me answer before you come to conclusions. Let me be sweet to you and have fun with you. Let me cry freely and break down in your arms when I need to, trusting me enough to know that I am a bad-ass bitch and I’ve got this. I have plenty of crumpled on the floor moments, but I will get up and re-adjust my armor with or without you.

I would just much prefer you let me know I am safe enough to take it all off when you’re around. 

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I Don’t Believe It’s True

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It’s been over a month since I’ve written.
A series of events has happened that led me to be absent including moving to a different apartment in record time because of roommate issues. Should I feel sorry? I think not. I need to do what’s best for me, always and every single time.
I’ve been beating myself up alot recently over the smallest things ever and that’s not healthy. I want to share with you something I posted to Facebook not too long ago.

Sitting on my back porch, listening to music, watching the stars between the cloud cover; wishing someone was here with me that actually likes cuddling and star watching.

I know I keep saying its better to be single, but to be honest, I miss all that cute stuff. Someone who sends me good mornings every day before they even get out of bed and go to work, someone who will take me out for surprise ice cream treats, someone who doesn’t get tired of me and can text me all the time and not get annoyed by thinking I’m “needy.”  Someone who takes me for me and not tell me to do certain things just to be able to talk to me. Someone who asks to hang out on a regular basis.

I’ve been a miserable schmuck lately and I hate it. Now living alone, which is great, it gets lonely still sometimes. I don’t want to get stuck in Wilkes Barre forever. I really want to leave next year, and hop on a train or bus to a new state and find happiness for myself. I’ll be 25 this year, and I don’t know what makes me happy.

Each day that passes, I get closer and closer to just packing up essentials and kitties, selling everything and finding a new state to set myself in, where no one knows my name.

Maybe this needs to happen, because I think I should know who I am by now, but I don’t.

I’m still sitting on that porch, and its now very late at night and I don’t know how I feel about anything anymore. I know I need to pack up and leave. I can’t bring myself to do it though. I need companionship, I need love. I’m tired of feeling like I don’t matter.

I’m falling behind on everything in life. Photos, art, having fun, stargazing for no reason… All of that is more enjoyable with someone you know and love. And I want someone to give me a reason to stay here in PA. Someone to tell me that they need me around and want me around for some time still and that they’re not ready to say goodbye. I haven’t been taking the time to do the things I love to do. I’m always sitting around being lazy, and I hate it. I really do. I need to step up and be better. For myself and for whoever may come my way and actually be there for me.

It’s now 130 in the morning and I still can’t sleep for anything. Always I have a few people to talk to right now who are also night owls so that’s a plus I guess. Others are stupid and passed out cold or busy or something else. At least Romeow is here to keep me company. He’s the best kitty in the world. MooMoo is of course adorable too, but I wish she’d let me pick her up or something and hold her. She hates everyone that walks in the door. Not like it’s many people but still. I guess I should go to bed. Before I forget to save this and it gets deleted like the last time.

Cheers,
xoxox
||Koral♡Dawn||

Mid Week Random Thoughts

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Greetings friends!

I’ve been up a long time today because I couldn’t sleep last night. I’ve been listening to New Medicine and We Are Harlot alot today (and bands of the like) and I’ve been in a decent mood.

New Medicine is a different type of band than I normally listen to. But I’m glad I’ve found them. They’re definitely interesting.

Today’s Wednesday and there’s not much to say except work seemed to take forever today. We starred a new time study for the work day, and I have to try and transfer everything to a new template tomorrow if I have time. And I just plain don’t wanna. I wish we were allowed to do OT whenever we wanted to like my mom can. I’d be working from home all the time because I could use the money. I hope this new template goes smoother than todays. Even though I made mine super pretty and easier to read. (Well, to me it’s easier, my coworker looked at me like I was insane when she saw it..)
I don’t normally post these, but here, have a selfie I took today:

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I was able to get Dunkin this morning because I needed a wake up. The new white chocolate raspberry is pretty awesome to be honest. I don’t normally like iced coffee but this one and the cookie dough kind they had in summer are amazing. Sadly they stopped the cookie dough one.. they better bring it back this year.
I’m watching Pain and Gain in bed again before bed. I feel lazy, as always. I’ve got no inspiration lately and there’s things I have to do still for a friend and everything just escapes me. That’s what happens when you get home at 6pm from work and then don’t even have dinner till 9 because you have to clean. Such is life and responsibilities though so… can’t really complain, atleast I was able to eat tonight a little.

Anyway, I should sleep. I have to be up at 615 am for work. Well, 630 but the alarm goes off at 615 so I can procrastinate.. as do so many people I know.

“I don’t believe in guilty pleasures, you know. I believe you should be able to like what you like, if you like a fucking Ke$ha song, listen to fucking Ke$ha.” -Dave Grohl

Cheers!
xoxox

||Koral♡Dawn||

Thoughts of The Day January 07, 2015

Laying here in bed at about 1030 at night trying to sleep already. Browsing Tumblr because what else is there to do really? I’m trying to go to bed but that’s been a fail from this cough I have going on. It’s about 0 degrees outside right now. I feel bad for the kitties that are outside all over in the area. But that just shows you what a caring person I am. I even put a blanket outside and some food hoping they’ll take shelter. I’m such a sap. And a good person.
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Some food for thought I guess.

I’ve been watching Harry Potter since the new year. I just keep falling asleep a d watch the same one over and over toll I see every part. So each movie takes about 3 days or until I get bored. Or actually, until the menu song gets on my nerves and wakes me up in the middle of the night. Been there done that before with plenty of movies. I need like a multiple DVD changer for my room so I don’t have to get up.
I just painted my nails. They’re a blue color but I’m not sure I like them this way. I might go over them with a silver and magnetize them. That might be cool.. we’ll see.
OHHHHH this is the movie where I just want to kill this bitch. Umbridge. Must. Die. If there was one person I would choose to burn with fire or thrown into a volcano. That happy stupid smile of hers and chipper voice, also those ugly bright pink outfits of hers… makes me want to punch someone. Anyway. I do love the later movies as their quality got better as they went on.

Do not pity the dead, Harry. Pity the living, and above all, those who live without love.

Cheers.
xoxox

||Koral♡Dawn||

July 15, 2014.

So for those of you wondering- I’ve been social media less for about 2 days now- I disabled my Facebook and my Twitter account for the time being as a result of complications. The only thing I have is Instagram, Snapchat ocassionally and Tumblr right now- and Tumblr is kind of dead anyway and my posts are queued. So I’m never on there much either.

It’s going well. I’m still attached to my phone though and I’m not sure why. I’ve tried putting it down and letting it alone. Most times there are only a few people I’d want to talk to and they don’t even talk to me- so there really is no point really.

After work today I’ll probably try and leave my phone alone again. I may sleep through the night or play some Diablo till 9 then call it quits. I don’t have anything to do tonight except give some stuff to a friend and (maybe) hang out for a little. I don’t know. Who knows.. at this point… I just don’t know anymore.

So because of this Facebook and Twitter boycott goes… I obviously can’t post to my photography Facebook either so that’s come to a halt. Not sure when I’ll pick up Facebook again. I haven’t stopped taking photos- and I’ll probably post them to here in the meantime.

This picture below is from the hockey benefit Saturday that pulled in over $100 and thankfully someone awesome got it. He wants to gather the rest of the signatures on it to it’s official and looks awesome. I’m super proud of this and how well it came out. I could have done larger pictures… but I think it looks fine the way it is.  Here’s a few more too from the dunk tank and my other photograph at the benefit.

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On another note- today is my first year anniversary with work. Not sure how I feel about that to be honest. Yeah I have a job- and it’s awesome .. I just wish there was more to do as well. We’re bringing on another person this fall I believe but I’m not sure why since there’s not much for us to do anyway already.. but more props to them. I want to manage the Pinterest and instagram for them if I can. That way I’m not on Facebook even for work. Maybe that will help me quit bitching on the internet. Who knows… it’s worth a try maybe I think.

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I demand cake. It’s an anniversary. .. where’s my cake? I worked hard for this. And I’ll still be here if I don’t find something better. I’m hoping we evolve as a team as well – and learn to work together more.

Anyway- that’s all for today. Long day yesterday and today. I just want to take zzquil and collapse at 9pm tonight and have 10 hours of sleep. I think I need it. And I need food. I haven’t eaten much in the past week. That’s not good. Someone feed me good food so I don’t die. Please? Thanks.
More later.. I’ll be posting all my photographs here.

||Koral♡Dawn||

Oh, The Audacity

Hello there,
And welcome back.

It’s been a little bit since I’ve written because I’ve just been so busy with life and other things.. yeah, what other things. Well you know, a little bit of this a little of that.

Moving on!

I’ve started Supernatural Season 9 finally.. very very good. So much better than Season 7 with the Leviathans! Back to the normal spooky witches and ghosts and what does best for the show. Thank goodness.. There needs to be more.

I took a few pictures today I think you all may enjoy.
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Hey look! That last one is of me 🙂 I decided to add that there for the bonus factor that I haven’t uploaded one in a long time. So, here you go. I’m actually sick here so… I hope I don’t look too terrible.

On that note.. bed time. I just wanted to share these with you really.

||Koral♡Dawn||