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New Year, Same Old Me

Good afternoon all. 

I know it’s now January 4, but I felt this had to be typed out sooner or later since it is the new year already and I’m late 4 days now.

I have some resolutions I’d like to state. They’re nothing out of the ordinary really. And I probably make the same ones every year and don’t follow them. But this year, since the year has a 5 in it, I’m going to try and stick to them. (I have this thing with 5’s and I think it’s my favorite number, don’t judge me.)

Here we go. 

1. I want to sign up for a gym. I haven’t done anything active in the past few years, and I think I need to do something to help my back. Not just physical therapy like I did, but an actual gym and get in shape more. I can’t run worth crap and my best sport is bowling. Because it doesn’t require alot of activity in a way.. I need to change that. I want to be able to play other things, like hockey maybe or wiffle ball or something like that. I’m actually really good at baseball and would like to play, even if it’s just with friends. But I need to go to the gym in order to work towards that. I’m not talking about getting buff, but I need to stay in shape. Maybe even zumba at home, or yoga to relax or something. Meditation helps, and I recently went to a massage and my god did that feel good. I so needed that for my back. I scheduled another one for 2 weeks because well, it was so damn good. I can’t stay un-active and be a ball in bed all the time. I need to get motivated somehow. I don’t want to lose massive amounts of weight either, maybe 10-15 pounds and stay fit.

2. Writing more. I don’t write enough on here and I have 200 followers finally. It makes me really happy when people read my blog and can stay up to date. I’m going to try and write atleast 2 times a week to start off with. Whether it be long, short or just a Photo of the Day or something like that. I have been neglecting this and I feel bad to those who actually enjoy my writing sometimes. (I know there are a few out there sometimes.) I want to make one post a Photo of The Day and then the other a long blog and wrap up of the week (if anything exciting happens.. but that’s most likely not going to happen at all aha.)

3. Pick up my camera more. I haven’t actually used it in months because I’ve been stressed busy and well just didn’t feel like doing anything. I’m more active in the summer, and I feel like a bear hibernating in the winter and just sitting at the computer. I really need to get out more and capture the winter beauty that’s out there sometimes. I see things and I just want to capture them, but I’m not one to carry my camera with me everywhere I go. I want to… but it’s too big and used for professional use mostly. Not that I’m a professional really but there are things I’m good at and well that’s one of them. I’m proud of my skill for the camera, but I wish I could put it to work.

4. Get my artwork into a gallery. Photography mostly, since that’s what I usually do. But, I have yet to get my art into a gallery here because there are more established photographers in the area. And that’s a real heartbreaker to me. I’ve been doing photography for how long? And I have yet to be in a gallery except at my community college? Something’s not right here. This year, my goal is to be in one of the galleries in Scranton or Arts On The Square, or something of the like. I need to be more active in the art community here. There are people here that are active… and they’re not that great. If they can be in it, why can’t I?

That’s really mostly it right now. There might be a few others I come up with along the way but right now I think those are the 4 I really need to focus on. It’s been too long since I completed something for myself and I’m tired of being lazy.

January 4, 1958: New Year four days gone, along with resolutions…
—  The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath
Cheers,
||KoralDawn||
xoxox

With or Without You

I’ll stop the world and melt with you.

So I’m sitting here in bed listening to this 80’s Love Songs playlist on my Google Play. Man I forgot how many of these songs I know. It’s actually quite sad really I’m sitting here singing all of these and I just have no emotion at all. They don’t even phase me anymore. They all used to. Especially U2. They always get me for some reason and well tonight… I’ve got nothing. Even the Boss doesn’t give me any feeling tonight… and I love Bruce.

I’ve got a kitty curled up next to me in a ball ready for me to pass out. It’s almost 9pm and I’m literally just sitting down and relaxing and not doing anything for the night. I just want to sleep. I had a long ass Monday at work and all I wanted to do was relax and cuddle with someone. But that didn’t happen either. So I’m stuck with a cat.. not that I’m complaining really because she’ll love me no matter what really. So will my Romeow. He loves everything though that lands in front of him – And I’m okay with that. Atleast he isn’t stuck up like little miss MooMoo.. but I love that about her. She’s picky and so am I.


On to more things:

We got some news today. One that which should hopefully put me in the right place at my job, or find a new one finally. The most awesome person in the world who’s been there for me for the past year and a half is leaving us behind to go work on another Team within the building. I didn’t have any words… I’m more shocked she’s actually leaving us. I don’t know how the office will run without her awesome upbeat personality. She’s helped me through alot and without her. I don’t think I’ll enjoy the workplace anymore. She was always so understanding and awesome with whatever it was with all of us… and now some other person who we don’t even know yet will replace her and try to manage us (SM especially) and well, it’s not going to be the same. I don’t know how I feel about this and I don’t believe I want to. No one will replace her at all. She’s the best Supervisor ever and I wish she did more managing on the SM side and sat with us more and that we were the focus. There’s nothing we can do about that now. I just hope they choose wisely. Technically any of us can apply for the position she is in because we are all Specialists. But I know I won’t get picked only because the other 2 have seniority over me. I’m the newbie. But I atleast should get a chance… don’t you think?

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I just found quite possibly the best album on Google Play right now. Why didn’t I know this existed? Punk Goes 80’s.. My ears are being treated to something amazing. I’ve been on an 80’s kick recently and it’s awesome. I can’t get enough of it these days, I don’t care if they’re remakes or the real songs because even the remakes have been done amazingly.

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Anyway – Here’s a thought of the day for you. I found this on the interwebs and I thought it was an interesting quote and it’s someone Unknown which is perfect. I love finding random, inspiring new quotes that no one has heard of really. They make the best quotes to really read and take to heart. I though this one was interesting because well, first, monkeys, and then I love Science and anything having to deal with it. This caught my eye. I hope you enjoy it.

Everything you know is the result of billions of monkeys telling each other stories for thousands of years on a 4 billion year old rock traveling through space immeasurable. You are a single piece of a vast cosmic machine defined and created by the physical laws which constrain it, and you are it just as the crest of a wave is the ocean. You are trillions of atoms contemplating trillions of atoms. You are beautiful and so is everything else. Nothing like you will ever exist again, every moment and every thought and every action is and always will be unique. You can’t change the past, and you can’t really change the future, but that’s okay because everything is pretty fundamentally alright. Just don’t forget to breathe.
—  Unknown

More later – It’s about time I hit the bed. It’s been a long Monday and I have to wake up very early tomorrow since it’s my early day again. Thank God I only have a 3 days week.. Happy Thanksgiving all if I don’t write before then. I hope you all get to spend it with the people who matter most to you.

pumpkins

One year ago things were way different. There were pumpkins and simpler times. I need more of those.

Cheers!

xoxox

||Koral Dawn||