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And Life Goes On

Ich hatte den Körper und nicht Dein Herz – Ich hatte den Körper und all den Schmerz

Hey all, here’s a little update on what I’ve been up to recently.

Today I parted with my PC that I built myself over a year ago and I was sad at first, but I have something that I’ve always wanted thanks to my mom for helping me obtain it. I’ll build another PC eventually, when I have more time and money to put into it and once I learn more about the way things work also.

I recently transferred to Apple products, and got an iPhone finally. I’ve never had one before and I can honestly say I really like it. I did however like my android, but this is just so smooth and fast at the moment, Apple never ceases to amaze me. Here are some photos I’ve taken with the iPhone that I’ve submitted to the app Twenty20 (a photography app that I’m fond of that you can make money from). These are in no particular order really, but I think I need to learn how to upload things at a smaller size for WordPress because these are large files.

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So in the past month, I’ve had so many problems that have been going on for me I’m starting to get annoyed. Someone new moved in upstairs and doesn’t know how to park at all. When he moved in I chatted with him and he doesn’t listen at all. The parking is always a problem here, and it would be so much easier if people listened and parked properly so we all fit.

I’ve been talking to one of my best friends here in PA and we’re probably looking to move in together soon I think. I don’t feel safe in my apartment where I live in Wilkes and this area is turning really bad with crime and police its just unliveable. I shouldn’t have to worry about being gone too long for fear someone is going to break in or my old roommate bothering me because she knows I moved downstairs in the building. I think it’s just best I leave Wilkes and head out to another town or back to Kingston. We’ve been looking at places and such to see what we can do because she can’t live at her place either. If we live together, there will be 4 cats in the house, haha. We are crazy cat ladies and not ashamed about it. Hopefully this works out for the better and with the both of us we get along amazingly and take care of each other. I’ve known her for years and I know we can live together because we’re awesome like that already. So hope this works out if we manage to find a place eventually.  I’ll feel safe and there will always be someone to watch the cats at a certain time of day or if someone goes away.

I can’t believe the holidays are around the corner already it seems like yesterday that I was just at moms for Christmas and here it is almost November already. Time is going too fast and I’m already 25 years old. I feel so old it’s not even funny nowadays. I hope it starts to slow down for me because it’s going to be gone in the blink of an eye. I hope I can find an immortality curse by then so I can live forever… lol. I know someone will find it or find a way to preserve life some sort of way by the time I’m 35 with all this technology that is going around.

Anyway, more another time. I need to go make some dinner now that it’s 8pm already and I haven’t eaten since 10am.

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Don’t Be Fooled-

I’m not sad actually for once- but I was listening to this song this morning and it really hits home.
It’s a great song and makes me think alot- but that’s to be expected of course.
Sometimes-I wish I never felt the influence of you
Cause now I feel the disconnect, like an open wound
Where you once were, there is a space that runs as deep as hell
But every morning when I wake I tell myself-
Don’t be fooled by your emptiness,
There’s so much more room for happinessSometimes-it’s worse to have lost than to have never had at all
Cause it’s a curse to feel loved then to feel it all dissolved
Where you once were, there is a space that runs as deep as hell
But every morning when I wake I tell myself-
Don’t be fooled by your emptiness,
There’s so much more room for happiness
-Kaskade; Room For Happiness
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– The bruises never heal. There is nothing left of me. I want to believe in someone-
I want to believe in something. I want to believe that I can love again.
|KoralDawn |

 

I’m Glad You Came.

Get your head out of the gutter.
I’ve been listening to this song basically all morning, and I don’t know why. Maybe because it hold meaning to me? No, no that’s not it. I didn’t even know of the band until I heard it on the radio one day and decided that I really liked it.. and now I can’t stop. It’s so catchy. The video is pretty cool, but it’s not your over the top video like I was expecting.

Today is Friday, however, so TGIF to you all. I’m slightly sad because I can’t go to Philly tomorrow for Comic Con and meet Thor… I don’t have the money and I don’t want to ask people for money because I also don’t have anyone to go with now. I hate being alone. I hate when people have no urge to go do anything with me at all.

I need to buy so many things like an air conditioner for the apartment so we’re not dying in the heat anymore, but I think I have to wait till the end of the month for that now; so I don’t go broke ass on everything else I need to live. I need to stop spending money on stupid shit. And I think I’m going to go donate clothes somewhere this weekend because I have too many (less than I did at mom’s house, but still too many) because I can’t fit anymore in my room. And since I’ve moved I’ve bought enough to basically replace what I had. Unsure. Oh well, I’ll go tear apart my room later on tonight or tomorrow.

Side note, speaking of tomorrow, (Saturday) I’m upset the LA Kings won the first game of the finals. I thought fershure the Devils had it. I hate how the Kings play though, and how they can get away with so much. I think we already found the team the TV announcers are favoring and who the Ref’s are favoring, and that’s just wrong.

I hope there’s something good on TV this weekend to help me with my boredum. I’m also going to working on my resume this weekend and fixing what my mom said about it as well. Make things easier for myself in case my work decides to be weird and say hey! I’m not paying you anymore or something like that. It’s better to have it than not have anything to start with right? And I can’t use my ‘creative’ resume for a professional job unless it’s in art or design, which is what I actually went to school for. Funny how things play out, isn’t it? I don’t even do anything with what I went to school for. I think I definitely should have went for something different like Forensics or something. *sigh*

Oh well, I think that’s enough for today. So much to do, just so much procrastination these days. Even here at work… hmm.

Hallowed Be Thy Name.

I heard this song this weekend, and it made me think; alot.

Is this what runs through our minds constantly, but yet, we don’t know?

Is this what some people fear?

I know if this were me… I’d think the same.

I’m waiting in my cold cell, when the bell begins to chime.
Reflecting on my past life and it doesn’t have much time.
‘Cause at 5 o’clock they take me to the Gallows Pole,
The sands of time for me are running low…

When the priest comes to read me the last rites,
I take a look through the bars at the last sights,
Of a world that has gone very wrong for me.

Can it be that there’s some sort of error?
Hard to stop the surmounting terror.
Is this really the end, not some crazy dream?

Somebody please tell me that I’m dreaming,
It’s not easy to stop from screaming,
But words escape me when I try to speak.
Tears flow but why am I crying?
After all I’m not afraid of dying.
Don’t I believe that there never is an end?

As the guards march me out to the courtyard,
Somebody cries from a cell “God be with you”.
If there’s a God then why does he let me go?

As I walk my life drifts before me.
Though the end is near I’m not sorry.
Catch my soul, it’s willing to fly away.

Mark my words believe my soul lives on.
Don’t worry now that I have gone.
I’ve gone beyond to see the truth.

When you know that your time is close at hand,
Maybe then you’ll begin to understand
Life down here is just a strange illusion.