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Hush Now Don’t You Cry

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Hush now don’t cry… wipe away the teardrop from your eye. You’re lying safe in bed… It was all a bad dream spinning in your head. Your mind tricked you to feel the pain of someone close to you leaving the game of life. So here it is, another chance- wide awake you face the day. Your dream is over… Or has it just begun?

I’m listening to one of my favorite songs right now – Silent Lucidity by Queensryche. I don’t know why I love it so much but anytime I hear it it makes me think of some Opeth and I like to sway back and forth to the beat. It comforts me I think and that’s something I don’t have often. Today was interesting. I went to work and was bored most of the day and then went to the gym after with an old friend. It was actually lots of fun and a good time I needed out I think. I usually go to the gym alone.. but it was nice to have someone there to talk to for once. I’m not good with meeting people online or in person for that matter.. and well I feel better talking online for some reason at first. But I haven’t seen him in ages and it was a good time tonight.

On that note, I’m back on the gym kick. I figure if I have to pay for it for a year I might as well use it and try and lose some weight finally for once since I’ve been saying that I’m going to for weeks now. It’s just a matter of eating right and eating good.. that’s always my problem. I can go to the gym every day of the week if I wanted to. But when it comes to eating better I suck at it sadly. I need someone to kick my butt into gear to eat right for once. I’m so used to eating everything I wanted to and not gaining weight at all because of the Mono I had in my body and now my metabolism is catching up to me from the last 10 years and making me not lose any weight at all. I don’t like being the way I am when I gained like 30 pounds in a year and a half two years now. It sucks and everything I used to like and wear doesn’t fit me anymore and it’s real disheartening.

I’ve had more time lately to write, obviously, since I don’t do too much anymore. I don’t have a boyfriend anymore, I have more time for me and well.. I’m not sure if I like it or not to be honest. It makes me think and that’s the last thing I like to do is to think. Then I get all these crazy ideas and stuff. I’m trying to go out there and meet new people and go to the gym more.. and take myself on “me” dates and relax a lot more. I think I’m too .. used to being around people and never really focused on myself and what I want to do in life. Now I have the chance to do that for once for awhile and I’m going to start doing that. Whether that means finding a job I like and want to stick with or moving to find said job.. you never know what might happen now. I’m not attached to anything here really and I’m not going to let anyone stop me at this point.

I want to start living and traveling and relaxing and taking care of me. This time next year I could have the job I always wanted or be living in another state or even country… I’ve always wanted to do something crazy; I just need to figure out how to incorporate the cats into my life. Maybe it’s time I rented that RV and packed up what I needed sold the rest and went on my way. I think about that a lot obviously.. as it’s been in my most recent blog posts multiple times. I think I really do need to leave the valley and start doing what I really want to do. No that doesn’t mean I’m coming home family.. as much as you want me to. I need to do me, and that’s not at home unfortunately. (Sorry mom, but you should come with me anyway and do something spontaneous.) And how ironic … Iron Maiden Run To The Hills just came on my music.. so fitting I think.

I’m pretty sure my roommates can hear me singing because I’ve been blasting some 80’s hits now and old school music and singing along and I have headphones in.. oops. I have no shame anymore I don’t care I’ll sing all the 80’s tunes that my heart desires. I don’t get to do that enough really.. and I need to get it out of my system everyonce in awhile. HEAVEN ISNT TOO FAR AWAYYYY. CLOSER TO IT EVERY DAY. NO MATTER WHAT YOUR FRIENDS MIGHT SAYYYY; WE’LL FIND OUR WAY. YEEAHHH.  There that’s my little shit for the night right there. Let’s see if you know what song that is and who it’s by. 10 cookies to anyone who can name that song and if you don’t know it without looking up the lyrics.. I don’t know you anymore. Seriously. Know your anthems damnit. /rant on 80’s tunes.

I really didn’t have a purpose for this entry today – I just wanted something to do I think before going to bed. And I’ve been sitting here listening to 80’s jams now after Iron Maiden came on and I put on the 80’s Love Station on Apple Music. Well then, this brings back so many memories and I love it. I’m going to sit here and keep jamming out to 80’s love ballads and sing them till I sleep. If you cant put up with that then well, I’m sorry. You’re gonna have to. Btw, Nobody’s Fool is on right now. Name that band.

In honor of 80’s Here’s a throwback photo from College Koral

I Am The Wind

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“When you’re dumb enough for long enough, you’re gonna meet someone too smart to love you, and they’re gonna love you anyway, and it’s gonna go so poorly.” – Neil Hilborn, Ballad of the Bruised Lung

Been awhile, life’s been crazy. I’ve been trying to find the time to keep writing but I just haven’t had any. I mean I have, but I’ve had no ideas really to make me want to write anything substantial in my opinion. It’s been a blur to be honest, I can’t believe a year has almost gone by since myself and guy started dating again.. and it makes me feel semi good, that I can make it better than the last time we dated since we both effed up the last time and several times after that. Seems like we can’t just get it right.. Maybe this time won’t be so bad… here’s to hoping!

I’ve taken some photos recently, with guy’s other camera the Sony a6000 and I like it. But I only like it with the 90mm Macro since it’s amazing. I kind of want it. But there’s no way I can afford the lenses for it. Yes, I can borrow his, but what’s that going to do for me should something happen with myself and him. I will never give up my Canon camera for something else. I would only add to it. I plan on trying to start a collection of some sorts and when I finally get a home, I will have a camera closet for all my things.

Here are a few shots of the Sony a6000 that I took just yesterday around Nanticoke, PA. 

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When you’re tired of waiting and time is not on your side
When you’re tired of hating me, you no longer want to hide

It’s time for another session of relaxation and tea bath before my roommates get home and take their long shower. I’ve been thankful enough to get to take some nice showers lately thankfully, and it’s helping my mood a lot surprisingly. *hand clap* Off I go because then I’m going to sleep forever tonight, maybe I’ll put my hair in curlers again. We’ll see since it seems to poof then I use them, lol!

Cheers,

xoxox

No, I Didn’t Watch The VMA’s & Other Rants

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And here’s why…

Every single other Social Media outlet had the on the minute reports of what was happening, I didn’t even need to tune in to any TV channel or click on a link to see that it was messed up in every way. I mean Kanye for President in 2020? Who wants to see that? Everyone will probably leave the country and be happier in my opinion, but that’s just me. I personally don’t think he’d be a “good” President, especially if he’s getting stoned at award shows and dressing like how he did. What kind of outfit is that when his wife is dolled up like that in a dress and he’s in a pant suit made of what looked like sweat material or something? I mean, he could have atleast smiled when pics were being taken, and atleast Kim’s dress looked a little more fancy than the rags he wore. They have how much money and can’t dress up in nicer clothes?

Anywho. I’m sitting at the drivers license center in town and I’ve been here an hour already. I should be working and making money but no, I have to sit here and wait to pay to get a license. This is ridiculous. It’s the day after a holiday and everyone should be at work again, not here. And of course you know, there were 4 people now there’s 2 for some reason. I came here at C656 and they’re only on C706 and I’m C734. This is absurd. They should have more people here to help out with this crowd. Not to mention they’re rude (the people who take the photos) and tell everyone wrong information. If you actually look up the Google reviews for this location, it’s only a 2.5☆ because of how rude the people are. Not even joking.
I have to run to Target after this to see if they still have those clearance desks so I can have a better work space to work on. Something cleaner and nicer for once instead of the glass desk. It’s a pain in the ass to clean as it is because if the fur from the kitties so I need something wood that’s easier. And if I got 2 desks and put them together, it’s 80″ long for 50$ and that’s not too bad right? I know they’ll fit because I have a 60″ desk right now about. And plenty of room for more.

*Side note* Target did have them, but not in the all black color I wanted so I got the brown and black ones and they turned out pretty well actually. I think I made the right choice and it was only 45 bucks after clearance and 5$ coupon I had and I’m pleased with them. I took some time off from writing this because well, the DMV went well and then Target went well and I worked the rest of the day. Now I’m back to working… I think atleast. I’ve been working since 9am today and I feel like if I hear or see another NYCONT number I’m going to throw up something nasty.

In this segment, I’d like to talk about Rhett and Link and the Mythical Beasts. I was recently introduced to them and I don’t know why I didn’t hear about them sooner. They’re always good for a laugh and a natural “wtf” reaction in any of their videos. I’ve been binge watching them and I think I could watch them forever. And I do have to admit that Link’s concoction of frosted mini wheats and peanut butter is actually really really good, even for breakfast when you have a headache and need all that sugar intake. That’s what I’ve been having for the past week and my gosh is it amazing. I think I could live off peanut butter like Link could. I think we’re twinsies. No, seriously, I think we are.

You're Weird, Peanut Butter Mini Wheats

You’re Weird, Peanut Butter Mini Wheats

Moving on, I think it’s about time this one ends and another begins. More later, like always.

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Hump Day Help

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Greetings, folks!

So I wanted some input on these I made for my photography. I asked a couple friends about their ideas and I’m going to be altering them to encompass their opinions as well. But for now, I’m working on business cards and need to know thoughts.
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Now, some things people have said so far to me include: take out location, might be too busy with the bokeh on the back, change the color of one letter on the front to red to stand out, put the K correctly on the front so people understand.

I agree with some of them. I’m going to take out the location off the back. I think I’m also going to change the front “K” to red, but still keep it backwards. It adds a bit of flair in my opinion and I’m not normal so, I’m sticking with thay decision. I think it’s sleek and interesting, but I’m not too sure about the back.

Your opinions are greatly appreciated on this one!

Anyway, it’s hump day and only 2 more days of 8-430 working this week. And I even have some OT in my schedule for this week (only 45 minutes but still.. that’s still some.) I wish we could do unlimited OT.. I’d be working all the time since I need the money.  But then that’d be frowned upon and I wouldn’t be allowed. Hence,I need a new job. 😦 or a part time one on top of this one. Something to save for small car things and Vegas in October.

More later, I need to get some sleep. I’m exhausted and haven’t been sleeping well again for all this week. Go figure right?

You can design and create, and build the most wonderful place in the world. But it takes people to make the dream a reality. – Walt Disney

Cheers!
xoxox
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