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If I Had My Own World…

I’d build you an empire. From here to the far lands -To spread love like violence. Let me feel you, carry you higher. Watch our words spread hope like fire… Secret crowds rise up and gather – Hear your voices sing back louder. ❤

Tomorrow is my 25th birthday. I’m calling myself half dead, because 50 seems like too many years to live I think. And if I’m not half dead, well then I guess people are going to have to deal with me just a bit longer then right? Tomorrow should be filled with fun and awesome and things to do because it’s my big 25. You only turn 25 once, and I think that’s a milestone in my opinion. Lately, I’ve been happy and doing alot of things that make me feel awesome, and with tomorrow being my birthday, I should still feel that way. … so why don’t I?

I paid my bills, I fed myself, I’ve fed my kitties and even cleaned the house majorly yesterday and did laundry all day because it had to be done. I’ve been listening to Angels and Airwaves all day (yesterday and today) and I almost forgot how much I love these guys and how much I can relate to alot of their lyrics. I don’t know why I’m not feeling happy these last couple days to be honest. Maybe it’s because alot of family couldn’t be at my birthday at mom’s and the fact that they won’t come see me in PA at all? Maybe it’s because I’m sleeping terrible at night again for no reason? Maybe it’s because I haven’t had that awesome connection with someone that I really want.

Maybe, it’s because I do everything for everyone and not many people can do a simple thing for me like even travel out to PA to visit me or even send a simple message of “hey how are you, how’s things going for you out there?” I’m tired of telling everyone when I’ll be back in NJ to go to mom’s house because no one even cares all too much about me being there anyway (friend wise) and the only people I really care to see are my grandparents right now. Everyone keeps telling to move back to NJ and live there. No. Why would I go back to NJ and have you all talk to me again since I’m there? I’m not out of sight out of mind here, I’m only a 2 hour drive away and you people can’t even make that small trip to see me here, why do I need to move back there? Because it’s a convenience for you? You’re not a friend, you just someone who doesn’t care and I’m not subjecting myself to fake friends anymore. I actually have people here in PA that care about me, or so I’d like to think that, and I’m not moving back to a place that could care less even when I come every damn week to visit.

On another note, I don’t know what I’m doing for my birthday tomorrow yet except getting my nails done with two girl friends in the morning. I hope I go tonight to get my mattress instead of cramming everything in in the morning. I don’t feel like getting up super duper early and running up to Sams Club at 9am to drag a mattress inside my apartment and then deciding what to do with the old one. That’s going to be interesting, unless I try and sell it tonight if I get the new one tonight. We’ll see what happens though. I’m hoping it’s tonight so I can enjoy a good night’s sleep for my birthday.

I think I should go see a movie tonight and take myself on a date because… everyone else is busy and I’d prefer to go alone anyway I think. Since I just found out I’m not getting my mattress tonight but rather tomorrow morning, I have some time to kill and I don’t feel like sitting home alone bored on the eve of my birthday. That’s just stupid. No one is ever around on Fridays and I’m always bored and have nothing to do, lol. And now that it’s my birthday, I don’t know what to do tonight, so I guess movie it is. I’ll treat myself to some fat food too and be happy and ignore people for a couple hours.

I’m off to shower and going to braid my hair so it can curl and look weird. It’s long enough and I don’t know how to use a curling iron, lol and I’m too lazy to YouTube anything right now. I don’t even think I know where my curling iron is at the moment… oops. I’m such a terrible girly girl. I should really take some lessons.

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I’ve Got To Take A Little Time…

In my life there’s been heartache and pain. I don’t know if I can face it again. Can’t stop now, I’ve traveled so far… to change this lonely life.

So this song came on and I can’t help but think of Rock of Ages every time I hear it. And it really bugs the crap out of me that I can’t find the disk for the movie. I might need to buy it again because I think it’s lost forever now. I haven’t seen it since I moved. I have a feeling it’s in my Xbox… and I haven’t plugged that in at the new place because I have the BluRay in my room now instead. Russell Brand is fabulous in that movie and I crack up every time I watch him and Alec Baldwin in the scene. I honestly can’t believe they signed on for those parts but that’s who they are. If they aren’t embarrassing themselves then they’re not doing comedy right. End of story, lol.

Moving on, I’m sitting here at nearly 11pm on a Monday night and I get to go home for Christmas Wednesday afternoon. I hope the weather doesn’t suck too bad because I have to drive 2.5 hours in it on Xmas eve to get to Nana’s and Poppop’s house. I have a feeling I will JUST make it for dinner and I really hope that’s not the case. I want some me time once I get there before showing up to the family. But… knowing my luck that won’t happen at all and I’ll get there and Nikki will be all like omg you’re late what happened to my Christmas picture.. or worse, they’ll take it without me. >.< Which is always what happens.

I’m hoping for a good Christmas this year though. I don’t need anything fancy… but who knows. There are a few things I did want but mostly I need money. I’d love for like straight up cash to be able to pay bills. Is that sad? I mean, I’m asking for money for Christmas to be able to live. Isn’t Christmas for giving and getting things you may not need but want? What has happened to the Christmas spirit? I’m not even in the mood this year for Christmas. I’ve been drained of energy and just dull as of late and I can’t help it. It doesn’t feel like Christmas and it doesn’t feel like it’s been a whole year since so much crap went down.. yet it’s still there in my mind and it sucks. I need a long long vacation on the West Coast or something and/or to never come back. I hope this next year will be better than this – it has been the craziest year of my life and I prefer not to remember alot of it in a way.. and no one can hate me for that.

Honey I know, I know, I know times are changing
It’s time we all reach out for something new

Yes, that’s Purple Rain lyrics.. It just came on my radio station on Google Play and I giggled like a school girl because I love this song so much. Hate me, I dare you. How can anyone NOT like this song? You’re not human if you don’t know of or don’t like this song and I won’t talk to you. And that’s the bottom line. (Stone Cold reference, if you will… not every day you see Prince and Stone Cold in a sentence now is it?)

Anyway, more later on. I was just a little bored and needed something to do I think and I wrote a blog today in work, but I can’t type it there so this is mostly from memory. It was nothing special but I had some free time today and instead of wasting it, I did something for myself for once. Even if it was writing down ideas for blogs. Sue me. I think I’m going to head to sleep, it’s late and I have to be up at 630am for work tomorrow… and then do some stuff including packing after work so I can get home to NJ right after work Wednesday.

Please let this holiday go RIGHT since it was supposed to be different than what it is.. please let me enjoy it and feel happy for once.. But I know that’s a long shot. We’ll see what happens.

Cheers!

Merry Grumpy Christmas!

Merry Grumpy Christmas!

xoxox

||KoralDawn||

With or Without You

I’ll stop the world and melt with you.

So I’m sitting here in bed listening to this 80’s Love Songs playlist on my Google Play. Man I forgot how many of these songs I know. It’s actually quite sad really I’m sitting here singing all of these and I just have no emotion at all. They don’t even phase me anymore. They all used to. Especially U2. They always get me for some reason and well tonight… I’ve got nothing. Even the Boss doesn’t give me any feeling tonight… and I love Bruce.

I’ve got a kitty curled up next to me in a ball ready for me to pass out. It’s almost 9pm and I’m literally just sitting down and relaxing and not doing anything for the night. I just want to sleep. I had a long ass Monday at work and all I wanted to do was relax and cuddle with someone. But that didn’t happen either. So I’m stuck with a cat.. not that I’m complaining really because she’ll love me no matter what really. So will my Romeow. He loves everything though that lands in front of him – And I’m okay with that. Atleast he isn’t stuck up like little miss MooMoo.. but I love that about her. She’s picky and so am I.


On to more things:

We got some news today. One that which should hopefully put me in the right place at my job, or find a new one finally. The most awesome person in the world who’s been there for me for the past year and a half is leaving us behind to go work on another Team within the building. I didn’t have any words… I’m more shocked she’s actually leaving us. I don’t know how the office will run without her awesome upbeat personality. She’s helped me through alot and without her. I don’t think I’ll enjoy the workplace anymore. She was always so understanding and awesome with whatever it was with all of us… and now some other person who we don’t even know yet will replace her and try to manage us (SM especially) and well, it’s not going to be the same. I don’t know how I feel about this and I don’t believe I want to. No one will replace her at all. She’s the best Supervisor ever and I wish she did more managing on the SM side and sat with us more and that we were the focus. There’s nothing we can do about that now. I just hope they choose wisely. Technically any of us can apply for the position she is in because we are all Specialists. But I know I won’t get picked only because the other 2 have seniority over me. I’m the newbie. But I atleast should get a chance… don’t you think?

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I just found quite possibly the best album on Google Play right now. Why didn’t I know this existed? Punk Goes 80’s.. My ears are being treated to something amazing. I’ve been on an 80’s kick recently and it’s awesome. I can’t get enough of it these days, I don’t care if they’re remakes or the real songs because even the remakes have been done amazingly.

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Anyway – Here’s a thought of the day for you. I found this on the interwebs and I thought it was an interesting quote and it’s someone Unknown which is perfect. I love finding random, inspiring new quotes that no one has heard of really. They make the best quotes to really read and take to heart. I though this one was interesting because well, first, monkeys, and then I love Science and anything having to deal with it. This caught my eye. I hope you enjoy it.

Everything you know is the result of billions of monkeys telling each other stories for thousands of years on a 4 billion year old rock traveling through space immeasurable. You are a single piece of a vast cosmic machine defined and created by the physical laws which constrain it, and you are it just as the crest of a wave is the ocean. You are trillions of atoms contemplating trillions of atoms. You are beautiful and so is everything else. Nothing like you will ever exist again, every moment and every thought and every action is and always will be unique. You can’t change the past, and you can’t really change the future, but that’s okay because everything is pretty fundamentally alright. Just don’t forget to breathe.
—  Unknown

More later – It’s about time I hit the bed. It’s been a long Monday and I have to wake up very early tomorrow since it’s my early day again. Thank God I only have a 3 days week.. Happy Thanksgiving all if I don’t write before then. I hope you all get to spend it with the people who matter most to you.

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One year ago things were way different. There were pumpkins and simpler times. I need more of those.

Cheers!

xoxox

||Koral Dawn||

Get Your Nerd On

Hey everyone!

I’m going to start posting updates on my cosplay outfits I’ll be working on this summer for NYCC– here’s to hoping they come out okay since I’ve never done this before and I’ve actually never been to a con. Can  you believe that? I know, so depressing for a geek like me. 😦 But it’s okay! I’ll change that this year. I plan on going to a few in the area when I can atleast for a day or two.

I’ll be attending Wizard World Philly – but I still need to find an outfit. I wanted to go the cliche Misty from Pokemon since it’s super simple and easy to throw together but then I wonder how many others I’ll run into. And plus it’s not a real cosplay outfit.. there’s my road block. So I have a few options that I have picked out- and I’ll need your help. I know I’m going as Jinx from League of Legends to the NYCC in October- here’s to hoping I get that press pass I registered for. I should know by June 6! Fingers crossed, wish me luck!

So for Wizard World- I had another thought. Maybe I can pull off a Raven from Teen Titans since I already have a hooded cloak as it is (I think) and I can get a simple wig. I also had the idea of Ramona Flowers from Scott Pilgrim. If anyone else might have any ideas as of who is simple enough without being TOO simple or tacky, please let me know- I’m always open to new ideas and things especially for this. Here are my ideas:
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I’ve also thought of this one too which… heh. I know I can pull off because I have the wig already and I can easily make fluffy wear. I juat need a larger chest area and then I’m golden. That might cost a few… thousand though sadly. So nothing too soon haha.
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So it’s getting near to Wizard World in Philly.. trying to vamp up something for it. I don’t know what day I am going yet whether it be Friday the 20th or Sunday the 22nd- I can’t go Saturday as much as I wanted to. (I’m going to be dying at a 5k that day in the Poconos with a bunch of people.) Maybe I’ll go Sunday and meet John Cena… lol. Yuck. I know he’ll be there.. I’m tempted just for the heck of it.
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I think I may try and just pull off something simple for this time and go all out for NYCC… I haven’t heard back about my press pass yet – but I’m hoping I get one. It would be awesome to be able to do that.
More later – need to get planning.

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